veruca

So, I will preface with, that I am going to the dr. tomorrow at 2. But, I am terrified and will bite my nails off til then...lol. I think I am just looking for encouragment that my cooch isn't going to fall off.


I guess I will start with yesterday, which really starts about 3 days ago...

I started my period and I noticed a spot of irritation on my left upper lip area. That happens sometimes, cause I use pads and sometimes it irritates the skin up there. Well, it started itching lik crazy and was a little red, but I just kept it dry and clean hoping it would just clear up, like it always has. Well...I woke up yesterday and the area where my leg meets my body was swollen and painful, like an infected lymph node which I suspect it is, and the little irritated patch has now sprung little blisters, and it hurts pretty bad.

yes, my first thought is HERPES as well.


the problem being...I have never had outbreaks before. EXcept for one thing...

about 6 years ago, I had a fling (I have only been with 4 people, and 3 were serious relationships) and about 2 or 3 weeks after...my vagina explodes into a million little pussy blisters. I also had a yeast infection at the time. Let me tell you, it is the one and only time I have seriously considered suicide, the pain was unbearable. I didn't have insurance or money at the time, so I went to the county emergency room, where they informed me it was most likely a reaction to the yeast medication I used.

I Have always wondered though...cause it sure sounds like an initial outbreak of herpes to me. But, I have never had an outbreak of anything, until now. So, I never got the blood test for herpes, and I asked the young man I was sleeping with(whom I believe would be honest with me, since he was a friend) if he had them, and he said no. SO, I have no idea where it would have come from if I do, in fact, have herpes. But, I also felt the beginnings of a yeast infection before this period now( I have chronic yeast infections)....and I have read information on the internet, that says in very rare cases the symptoms I am showing can be brought on by yeast infections.

So, needless to say I am terrified. And my Dr. is in surgery all day today so I have to wait to see him. Blah. Thanks for reading :hug:

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amonkie

I have a feeling you won't have complete piece of mind until you get a blood test taken - Let your doctor know your concerns and get a thorough exam - do you know what ingredients in the yeast infection you might have had a reaction to?

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katie_ann1031

I'm sorry Veruca, that's terrible, but you'll get through it. I don't know exactly what you know, but it sounds to me like herpes should be the least of your concerns. You're pretty sure you didin't contract it, so how can you have it, right? But I agree with Amonkie, get tested before you worry yourself to an ulcer.

:hugs back:
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maleficent

Tomorrow will come soon enough and then you will have your answers.

Worrying about it isn't good for you...

You are going to the doctor and that is what is important...

Stop researching symptoms on the internet, it's only adding to your angst... do something fun for you.. to take your mind off of it.

If it does come down to it and you have herpes, while there's no cure... there are treatments to keep the outbreaks under control (and your husband is going to probably need to get tested as well) That sounds like it's worst case...

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veruca

well, when I had the really bad outbreak (this sounds so terrible that I don't know) it was the Blue Monistat box...the purple one is differant. So, I have used either the purple box, or what the Dr. prescribes since.

Thankfully, my husband has shown no signs of Herpes in the 5 years we have been together, which again, makes me wonder if this is truely what it is. After 5 years of unprotected sex(well, BC, but no condoms) you would think he would contract it if that is what it is. But, then not everyone sheds the virus all the time, some people only when they have a breakout. And, since this is the first time anything has happened....

I am taking to the dog to the park...lol..that always makes me laugh. Thank you for your support.

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maleficent

It's entirely possible that monistat changed their formula... People also can develop allergies to something over time...

Go play with the dog...

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onodrim

Maleficent's advice is best at this point, you've made the appointment, so soon you'll have the answers you need. I've done what you have, looking up symptoms online, and what starts out as thinking I have a simple cold turns into thinking I have chronic fatal pnemonia or something. Do what you're doing now, find other activites to keep you occupied and know we're all thinking about you.

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maleficent

Amen to that - I'm not really a hypochondriac but I can go from the sniffles to bubonic plague in about 4 clicks...

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JustJess

And shower. Showering makes itchy uncomfortable cooters feel better.

Good luck, and let us know!!!

:more hugs:

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ShaniFaye

something similar like that happens to me when Dave an I have sex....If I dont wash off immediately after sex I break out all over down there, and yes its painful. The doctor said it wasnt uncommon to be "allergic" to the ph levels in sexual fluids with some partners and that they change sometimes in a female and I could actually be allergic to MY own fluids. Its really bad if I've shaved recently and we have sex and I dont wash off with a warm wash cloth.

hopefully you're just fine!!!

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JustJess

Ooh, I'm having that right now!! Rough booty plus cycle changes plus cut hair... yowza!

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abaya

That is totally me, too .. how funny. I don't know how many times I've convinced myself that I was pregnany when my period was a day late (on BC!)... just by reading stupid stuff on the internet. :P

Meanwhile, yes, I get weird symptoms like that all the time down there. As JustJess said, it's usually after some wild sex, along with hair issues and hormonal changes. Ohhhh how I LOVE being female, sometimes... gaaah. It sucks to have your most intimate parts be so vulnerable!

We're with you, Veruca. Let us know how it goes.

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snowy

I've had bad yeast infections give me blisters (before I even had sex, so I knew it WASN'T the happies) because of the extreme irritation. So it's not always immediately the bad thing

Glad to hear you're going to the doctor without delay, though. This is not something to "wait and see" about.

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katie_ann1031

Talk about a cruel twist of fate...

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veruca

well, ladies. I have returned.

I have "THE HERPES" *cue scary music*

So, my episode 6 years ago, was my initial reaction. He finds it odd that I have had no other break outs in 6 years, but it's possible they were internal or so mild, that I mistook it for an ingrown hair or something. I am positive this is the first real outbreak I have seen since the big one, so it looks like lucky me got a very dormant strain, and I hope it stays that way. The bumps are far from pleasant.

He gave me the usual medications, and my husband has to go get blood work to see if it's sitting in his system since he has never had an outbreak.

At least I have my answers. blah. Thanks for your support ladies! :hug:

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maleficent

well... better to know than to worry... Now you know... you've got options to keep it under control...

Go play with the doggie and do something fun for yourself...

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raeanna74

That has gotta suck. I do hope it stays pretty much dormant. From what I've heard, the outbreaks happen less and less frequently as the years go by and the body becomes more able to control the virus. Good luck no matter what.

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JustJess

I'm so glad you're okay, though - it could have been a lot worse than herpes. And I'm glad you're married - at least you don't ever have to explain this to a potential partner!

Here's to Veruca's cooter keeping it dormant. :* I'm sorry it did end up this instead of yeast.

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onodrim

Like mal said, at least now you have peace of mind. Thanks for keeping us updated, I'm sure you'll get through this!

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abaya

Veruca, thanks so much for telling us. That was pretty brave of you.

Adding to the hopes that it stays dormant, and also very glad that you have a wonderful husband to support you no matter what.

...btw, wonder if there's any way of letting that fling-guy know about this?

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veruca

As for him...it could have been any of the 3 men I was with before my husband. All of them were "clean"...Men any woman would run herself over for....well-educated, good looking, sweet, kind....Not at all what the stigma of what an STD is..lol. I had seen thier penis' on many occasions, and they all showed no signs of Herpes, it's possible any of them were a carrier...and it just never showed up on them. I am thinking it was the fling, only because he was the one I had slept with within the 2 weeks prior to the first outbreak, and sadly, I have no idea how to get ahold of him..it was 6 years ago :shrug: I am sure he has figured it out by now if it was him, besides I did mention it to him when it first happened.

I am not really embarrassed, just sad. I was so "careful"....I have slept with 4 people in my life...4!!!! I picked so carefully who I would share my body with, because I never wanted this to happen. It just goes to show you that you can't be "too careful" and with Herpes even condom use isn't 100%. So, be wary ladies...it happens to the best of us.

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maleficent

there is no reason for you to be embarassed... this is a disease you picked up... and I'm sorry you're sad...

and you're absolutely right.. .no matter how careful you are... you honestly don't know... it's even worse that you used condoms and it didn't help. All it takes is one infected person to pass on this disease.

(this could be an afterschool special on how there really is no such thing as safe sex)

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Rubyee

Maleficent is right. There is no reason to be embarassed, though I would be to.

But on the bright side, there are many ways to treat herpes now. It isn't such the bummer that it used to be.

It does still suck though. Hang in there, girl! I will keep you in my thoughts.

And as for the afterschool special- I want to play the part of dumb blonde who thinks that the pull out method works.

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cellophanedeity

While it does suck that you have herpes, you're definitely not alone in the situation. There are statistics that suggest that up to One out of Five have herpes.

And at least it's non-fatal!

Thanks for sharing with us. Sorry it had to happen to you. -_-

jenjen

I can understand being embarassed, but better this than something life-threatening. I've actually heard statistics that say 1 in 4 people has herpes, which would imply that sleeping with 4 people, the odds are in your favor to getting it (yeesh that can't be true can it???)

Anyway, hopefully once in six years becomes once in twelve...and so on...

piggy_annie

Yea I'm also scared about something, I want to go to the clinic but I'm just too scared, I have no blister or anything is wrong ,but I notice that my bladder have been hurting, like when I'm just sitting here all of a sudden a sudden pain struck my gallbladder its not incredibly painful that I cant handle but it does annoy me. And I heard loong time ago although very vague but one of the symptoms for STD is pain with your gallbladder? or peeing blood or something? does anyone know? sorry to ask this in your thread but I dont want to make another thread for it.I just currently broke up with my current attachment so there might be a possibility.

Call me a kid but I'm horrify with the Idea going to the clinic having someone stick a metal thingy in your vagina open it up to get a little sample for the test, and I've got the front row seat watching such a thing that it have hunted me until now.

Sultana

piggy_annie, this could also be a symptom of a Urinary Tract Infection.
Whatever it is, you need to go to the doctor's and have it diagnosed and taken care of. It's not likely to get better on it's own, it will likely get worse. If you think there is even the remotest possibility it's an STD, you need to do the responsibile thing. Hopefully, that's not what it is, but you still need to take care of yourself pronto.

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veruca

Go to the DR!!!!

The bladder infection test will just be to pee in a cup. But, you can't stay away from the gyno forever, no matter how terrifying. I hate going, but there are things that can go on down there that can kill you if you don't get them taken care of. Trust me, 5 minutes of poking is worth it.

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maleficent

This attitude drives me absolutely crazy... and I'm going to put on my parental type hat and scold...

If you think you are old enough to be having sex, then you are old enough to act sexually responsible. If you have even the slightest inkling that something may be wrong... Get to the doctor as soon as possible.

An STD is not a death sentence, and not all of them are permanent conditions -- UNLESS you choose to neglect it, then you open yourself up for all sorts of problems down the road.

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JustJess

^^^ What she said. (Mal makes it easy on us, being the voice of reason and all.)

Go. Now. It's uncomfortable, but not usually painful. It's just 5 minutes. And it could make a big difference.

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raeanna74

Absolutely right. Correct me if I'm wrong but as far as I know, there are only two STD's that are not completely curable. Those are herpes (which is controllable) and HIV. There is no treatment for HPV but most people are able to develop a resistance to it and are eventually (anywhere from 2-6 years usually) able to be declared clear of it.

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cheerycheeks

Going to the gyno isn't really that bad. No one likes it, but it's really nothing to worry about. It's a little uncomfortable, but it's really no big deal. Suck it up and get in there! The peace of mind when your done will be well worth the few minutes it takes!

noodle

I had HPV and severe cervical dysplasia when I was 19. That was almost 10 years ago and eight years before I had sex because I was terrified of what I could end up with. I worked in HIV/AIDS services for a year right after that time and that was great birth control for me. As bad as a gynocology visit can be once a year, it's better to go to that one then be stuck going every three months for the next two years. I hated going because I was really small and it was extremely painful. Had I sucked it up and just gone when I started to have symptoms instead of waiting a year until my next check up, I'd have saved myself a world of trouble. I also ended up with chronic systemic yeast after the surgery for dysplasia. Every time I went to the dentist I got thrush, and there was yeast in my sinuses. Ugh! It took six years to clear that up. Just DON'T wait if you have even the tiniest concern.

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