03-11-2005, 05:34 PM | #41 (permalink) |
Upright
Location: denial
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Last night at work. I sat down on the bathroom floor and just sobbed. I had an endstage AIDS patient who after 22 years was just diagnosed with large cell lymphoma that day. So he is essentially a dead man. It just got to me. He was extremely needy, his temp wouldn't stay down (103.8) no matter what I did and my other patients were getting neglected. I felt like a crappy nurse and just felt very powerless.
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03-11-2005, 07:32 PM | #42 (permalink) | |
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Location: Out on a wire.
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03-12-2005, 03:39 PM | #43 (permalink) |
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Location: Land of the puny, wimpy states
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Last time was about two weeks ago, then twenty-eight days before that and twenty-eight days before that and twenty....
What can I say? I guess I'll be due for one in about two weeks.
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03-13-2005, 08:35 PM | #44 (permalink) |
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Location: Pittsburgh, PA
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Up until last month, I hadn't been able to cry for about 2 years. I needed to, but I literally wasn't able. But since last month, after a rejection from this girl I really, REALLY like, I've been able to cry, and I've more than made up for the past two years.
The last time I cried was, I believe, Friday. I got my tonsils removed last week, and I've been in a ridiculous amount of pain since. So on Friday, I was hurting and just generally exhausted, and I cried.
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03-14-2005, 03:50 PM | #45 (permalink) | |
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Location: NYC
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I hear you girl. lol My relationship has been shitty for the past few weeks and I find myself crying each time I have to deal with something nasty. I hate crying, it makes me feel so weak, but at times, it's the only thing that I can do to make me better. |
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03-15-2005, 02:28 PM | #46 (permalink) | |
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Location: Bowling Green, KY
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03-15-2005, 03:58 PM | #47 (permalink) |
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Location: London
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I cry every morning when i realise that i'm in my grad year, i have weeks left and more work than i can shake a stick at. But the crying will stop once i'm done, then i'll never be sad again.
although i did cry when my dad had a heart attack a month ago, touch and go for alittle while but he pulled through and hopefully will make a full recovery. Fingers crossed.
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03-16-2005, 09:23 AM | #50 (permalink) |
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Location: CA-USA
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Every day this week. My girlfriend broke up with me over the weekend while I was away on vacation. Every day since has been very difficult. Live and learn I guess.
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03-16-2005, 04:55 PM | #53 (permalink) |
Junkie
Location: Greater Harrisburg Area
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8-11-03 The day I left for college the first time. Vanessa, one of my best friends at the time came over very early that morning to see me before I left, and as I was loading the car she began to tear up and it occured to me we probably wouldn't be such good friends after I left and I just lost it.
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03-18-2005, 08:05 AM | #55 (permalink) |
Location: Iceland
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Cried really hard last night, for about an hour. Stress, insecurity, loneliness, general sadness about several things... you name it... it was all feeding on my tears last night. But sometimes I do just really need to be alone and let it all loose, feel as weak as can be, cry very hard and feel that emotion moving through my body. Then call up a girl friend and have them understand, and laugh about it.
In general I cry at least once a week if not twice or three times. It's not something I choose, it just happens, and only in private... everyone else (except my boyfriend) sees me as being fairly unemotional. But I sort of like being able to let loose alone, it helps me cope with things building up deep down inside. Volcanic eruptions of the soul, or something... And let me ask, does anyone else cry more when they're in a relationship? I find that if I'm totally and completely single, I cry very rarely. But for some reason being in a relationship makes me much more emotionally vulnerable and expressive, and so I cry much more often. The only other thing that causes me to cry are family issues, when they're in my face... but that's not as often as it used to be. So basically being in a relationship really opens me up inside... this is both good and bad, I guess.
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03-24-2005, 01:26 AM | #58 (permalink) |
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Location: Las Vegas
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Just a few days ago I was in Oklahoma City and went to the memorial at the Murrah Building. They have a lawn set up with chairs on it for each person who died in the attack. Each chair has a name etched in to it of the person it represents. Some of the chairs are small, and they represent the children who died that day.
Seeing it like that, seeing a monument to each individual, seeing the children, really brought home the tragedy of that day. It was quite emotional for me.
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03-24-2005, 10:56 AM | #59 (permalink) | |
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Location: Out on a wire.
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03-24-2005, 03:26 PM | #60 (permalink) |
Location: Iceland
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Hmm Gilda, I like that. Someone to catch me if I go too far. If I'm not in a relationship, then I have to stay in control of my feelings all the time since I know it's just me taking care of me... so what you say makes sense.
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03-27-2005, 07:12 PM | #61 (permalink) |
Location: Iceland
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Then again, you know, I think I only really, truly cry (like whole body-shaking, on the floor because I have no strength, almost hyperventilating) when I'm alone. I've only been able to do this in front of other people a few times, but it's sort of like throwing up, or perhaps having an orgasm... something I hate/love doing, takes so long to get there, but once I'm going in that direction, nothing could stop it.
I feel so vulnerable when these things happen that I'm afraid of anyone seeing how helpless I am, or that they are going to feel uncomfortable with me letting loose like that. And I've never seen anyone else cry like that, so I feel a bit freakish when it does happen, like I'm going insane because it just aches and aches so much.
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03-27-2005, 09:52 PM | #63 (permalink) |
Forget me not...
Location: See that dot on the map? I don't live there.
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Two to three hours ago.
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03-29-2005, 01:01 PM | #65 (permalink) |
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Location: The twisted warpings of my brain.
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Take your pick. . . I'm sure that it hasn't been more than a couple of days, probably Saturday night really.
I keep things bottled up so badly while I'm in public that when I get home, and I'm alone, small things will key me off and I'll let it out, I really don't have any choice, that lump in my chest is so big that nothing else fits anymore. And if you don't like it that I'm a guy and I cry, hell with you, I'm not doing it for your approval and I don't need your approval to justify it besides, would you rather I turned into one of those "quiet people, he must have just snapped" types?
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04-02-2005, 07:47 AM | #67 (permalink) |
Location: Iceland
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liquidlight, you don't need my approval but I think it's great that you are able to cry so often. The same thing happens to me... small things seem to have more power than really big things. And yeah, I'd rather not snap, either (at least, I only do so once a week instead of once a year or decade).
Crying does a soul good. I think there's nothing to be lost from allowing oneself (learning?) to be utterly vulnerable and broken, to realize how fragile we are. Camus: "Live to the point of tears."
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04-02-2005, 01:40 PM | #68 (permalink) |
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Yesterday morning (4-1-05)... girlfriend of four years broke up with me about 5 months ago, saying that we grew apart.. we've kept in touch every other week or so, but I'm getting to the point where I'm realizing that--despite loving her as much as I do--it's very hard not to have the kind of relationship we used to have, and that with how frustrated the current friendship is making me if it's worth it to continue on with the friendship (I know.. that sentence carried on and on and on.. haha).
I know that it was 5 months ago that she broke up with me.. I'm doing pretty good, I think.. still cry at least once a week though... it'll just take time to fully get over her, though, I guess. |
04-02-2005, 11:17 PM | #72 (permalink) |
Ella Bo Bella
Location: Australia
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I cried last night when my relatively new SO told me he wanted to grow old with me. It was the singularly most beautiful thing anyone has said to me in a long time.
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04-14-2005, 01:50 PM | #74 (permalink) |
Insane
Location: South Florida
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I have turned intoa bucket of emotions. I hadnt cried for years till my girlfreind went to north carolina for school. Then the first few months, id bust out crying out of no where. I've gotten in better control recently, but we ended up breaking up recently, and that brought it back on.
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04-15-2005, 02:25 AM | #75 (permalink) |
Femme Fatale
Location: Elysium
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Last night. I had a terrible migraine attack.
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04-15-2005, 05:00 AM | #76 (permalink) |
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its been long enough that i can't remember. there has been many situations where i've thought that i SHOULD be crying, but for whatever reason i've been unable to. i can remember times i've felt guilty because i didn't have the desire to cry.
when everybody around you is crying and your not, it somehow makes you feel less human, like your no longer a participant in life. when my best friend shot himself, i remember it being like that. i think that feeling is actually worse, than the feeling that caused it. |
04-15-2005, 05:18 AM | #77 (permalink) |
Junkie
Location: LI,NY
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I have been crying more than I would like to. Seems like alot of little things make me cry. Could be a song on the radio, a hug from one of my kids, or just nothing. It is horrible and I hate being this way.
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04-15-2005, 07:42 AM | #78 (permalink) |
Newlywed
Location: at home
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when I found out my dad might move to Wyoming without my mom and that he'll probably try to take my little brother with him... I'd rather have my brother live with me than have my dad have him.
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