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Dano069 · 06-15-2004, 05:21 AM

The Darkness
by
Dano069

The darkness swallows me whole.
Each waking hour a nightmare just begun.
Sleep, sleep, sleep away the day,
If only I could.

I picture myself happy, laughing.
What a joke.
Misery is what I feel.
Misery is what I am.

Friends, relations, co-workers,
All say, "Snap out of it. Look what you have"
Glass half empty, darkness all around.
That's how I see the world.

Tumor, faulty wired brain, lunatic, cancer
They're all the same to me.
Darkness covers all.
Too much pain to see.

"It's all in your head"
As if I didn't know that.
Why can't you just let me go.
I feel death call out, "Come to me and I'll end your sorrow"

If it only were that easy.
The gun, pills, electricity, drowning, car crash.
All have crossed my mind.
Sweet release all.

I cry out, but there's no reply.
Abandonment, betrayal, loneliness, hurt.
That's what my friends gave me
Friends? Hah! Better to live with my enemies.

Family? Comfort? None found there.
All are out for their own good.
Too caught up with their own problems
No time for the crazy man.

Darkness, darkness covers all
And yet, here I am, caught, trapped, unable to move.
Too many responsibilities to go.
Too much pain to stay. I'm in limbo.

J.R.V.A. · 06-16-2004, 05:27 AM

Very good.... I enjoyed this a lot...I feel just like this sometimes.Thanks for sharing

Dano069 · 06-17-2004, 09:12 AM

The Struggling
by
Dano069

I struggle, each day
Not wanting to believe
That my life has changed so
That the desire to die is so strong.

Cheer up, happy, happy, joy, joy
Why can't you just be happy.
I don't know.
I haven't been happy in so long, I've forgotten.

Wife, kids, family
They bring joy.
But, it's temporary
And the responsibilities are overwhelming

Can I keep it together?
Will I just snap?
Questions, questions, questions
And I don't have the answers.

Life is wearing me down.
My dreams and hopes crushed
Beyond repair, beyond redemption, beyond help
Why can't you just be happy?

I don't know, and yet, I struggle on.

06-15-2004, 05:21 AM	#1 (permalink)
Dano069 is Nucking Futs! Location: On the edge of sanity	The Darkness The Darkness by Dano069 The darkness swallows me whole. Each waking hour a nightmare just begun. Sleep, sleep, sleep away the day, If only I could. I picture myself happy, laughing. What a joke. Misery is what I feel. Misery is what I am. Friends, relations, co-workers, All say, "Snap out of it. Look what you have" Glass half empty, darkness all around. That's how I see the world. Tumor, faulty wired brain, lunatic, cancer They're all the same to me. Darkness covers all. Too much pain to see. "It's all in your head" As if I didn't know that. Why can't you just let me go. I feel death call out, "Come to me and I'll end your sorrow" If it only were that easy. The gun, pills, electricity, drowning, car crash. All have crossed my mind. Sweet release all. I cry out, but there's no reply. Abandonment, betrayal, loneliness, hurt. That's what my friends gave me Friends? Hah! Better to live with my enemies. Family? Comfort? None found there. All are out for their own good. Too caught up with their own problems No time for the crazy man. Darkness, darkness covers all And yet, here I am, caught, trapped, unable to move. Too many responsibilities to go. Too much pain to stay. I'm in limbo. __________________ I may look attentive, but I'm taking peeks down your blouse faster than the human eye can follow.

06-16-2004, 05:27 AM	#2 (permalink)
J.R.V.A. Junkie Location: Utah	Very good.... I enjoyed this a lot...I feel just like this sometimes.Thanks for sharing __________________ And as she plays, her sweet song of laughter floats through the air and warms my heart

06-17-2004, 09:12 AM	#3 (permalink)
Dano069 is Nucking Futs! Location: On the edge of sanity	The Struggling The Struggling by Dano069 I struggle, each day Not wanting to believe That my life has changed so That the desire to die is so strong. Cheer up, happy, happy, joy, joy Why can't you just be happy. I don't know. I haven't been happy in so long, I've forgotten. Wife, kids, family They bring joy. But, it's temporary And the responsibilities are overwhelming Can I keep it together? Will I just snap? Questions, questions, questions And I don't have the answers. Life is wearing me down. My dreams and hopes crushed Beyond repair, beyond redemption, beyond help Why can't you just be happy? I don't know, and yet, I struggle on. __________________ I may look attentive, but I'm taking peeks down your blouse faster than the human eye can follow.