Dano069

The Darkness
by
Dano069

The darkness swallows me whole.
Each waking hour a nightmare just begun.
Sleep, sleep, sleep away the day,
If only I could.

I picture myself happy, laughing.
What a joke.
Misery is what I feel.
Misery is what I am.

Friends, relations, co-workers,
All say, "Snap out of it. Look what you have"
Glass half empty, darkness all around.
That's how I see the world.

Tumor, faulty wired brain, lunatic, cancer
They're all the same to me.
Darkness covers all.
Too much pain to see.

"It's all in your head"
As if I didn't know that.
Why can't you just let me go.
I feel death call out, "Come to me and I'll end your sorrow"

If it only were that easy.
The gun, pills, electricity, drowning, car crash.
All have crossed my mind.
Sweet release all.

I cry out, but there's no reply.
Abandonment, betrayal, loneliness, hurt.
That's what my friends gave me
Friends? Hah! Better to live with my enemies.

Family? Comfort? None found there.
All are out for their own good.
Too caught up with their own problems
No time for the crazy man.

Darkness, darkness covers all
And yet, here I am, caught, trapped, unable to move.
Too many responsibilities to go.
Too much pain to stay. I'm in limbo.

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I may look attentive, but I'm taking peeks down your blouse faster than the human eye can follow.