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Old 08-12-2008, 12:47 PM   #1 (permalink)
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My friend and I

Well, I really just want to talk about how he died. I found him on my living room floor dead in the spot that he was in when I left him. I guess I'll give a little back story first. We met when I started back to work at a place that I had left years before and he was now an employee there as well. At this time I was staying with my parents and depended on them for a ride to and from work. About the third day there I had to walk to work, I was about a mile away when he passes me on the road and offered to give me a ride which I gladly accepted. As we were riding the rest of the way in the in he mentioned that he was looking for a roommate and I moved in 2 days later. So any way we hit it off and ended up being roommates for 2years before I left and moved out of town. Now this whole time our friendship was more or less on a roommate bases we had our own circle of friends. I stayed gone for 2years in which time we kept in contact thru emails and such. Well, I came back to help him buy a condo where our friendship grew to where we became best friends. I really had never had a best friend before. You know, someone that you could talk to with out judgment or anything like that. So anyways, a few years go by and I meet this girl and we hit it off. I guess that's the way it always starts out. After a short time I moved in with this girl to help her out with the bills and what not, being as her mother just had her leg amputated. and was in a nursing home. Whoa, let me say that my friend and I were not living together at the time. So it's not like I had left him hanging with bills or anyhting. So I am with this girl and we are flaling in love and that whole thing. I dont know about you but Ive never really had tomany friends or girlfriends. I've always been kind of antisocial. I've also had this thing in my head since I was a child that you could only really care about one person. Or maybe it was more like I only had enough love in my heart to give one person at a time. If you can understand that. And that brings me to where I was falling in love with this girl and at the same time I felt like the love that I have for my friend was going away. And I have also felt that I could control things with my mind. Its more like imposing my will on thing and making things happen by willing it to happen. Its been that way since I was a child. Maybe it sounds crazy, I know. But that kinda brings me to my point. I was living with this girl, and my friend is staying with us off and on. And the longer that me and the girl are together the farther my feelings for my friend get put on the back burner. So one day my friend says to me something that really upset me and made me mad at him. And after that I really didnt ant to see him or talk to him for a while just to let things cool off. I never really let it be known to my friend that I was mad at him. I only told my girlfriend about my feeling, which I normaly would have gone right to my friend about it. And so for some reason or other he couldnt tell that I did not want him around anymore so he would come over and hang out and I would ignore him and that whole thing. So one night he comes in with a huge pill and says that its methadone. I'm like what ever I tell him that I had done that along time ago and all it did was make me sick and that I didn't want any part of it. So this night I really dont want to even look at him so instead of telling him to leave I get this painting that I was working on and set it up in between us as a kind of curtian and started working on it till I went to bed. We told hm to stay there because he had taken some of the pill and drank a beer. He said that he was going to listen to some music and go to sleep. I woke up at about 5:30 to go to work went in the living room and heard him snoring on the floor and thought to myself my thats a loud snore. And for some reason I decided that I was going to call in to work, so I went and laid back down. I got back up at 11:30 and walked back in the living room and looked down at my friend on the floor and noticed what looked like a hairball on his mouth. The closer I got I realized that it was foam. I froze for just a second and jumped back. THen I ran up to him and turned him on his side and his mouth emptied out and I could feel his skin was cold to the touch and the back of his arms and ears were blue. I've never been the first person to find someone dead. If you want Ill post what happend after but thanks for letting me get this out being as I dont really have anyone to tlak to . Thanks
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Old 08-12-2008, 01:25 PM   #2 (permalink)
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This is a story about my friend and I --

Well, I really just want to talk about how he died.

I found him on my living room floor dead in the spot that he was in when I left him.

I guess I'll give a little back story first: we met at work. At the time I was staying with my parents and depended on them for a ride to and from work. Roughly three days after returning, I had to walk to work. I was about a mile away when he passed me and offered a ride, which I gladly accepted. As we were riding the rest of the way in the in he mentioned that he was looking for a roommate.

I moved in 2 days later. We hit it off and ended up being roommates for 2 years, before I left and moved out of town. For those two years, our friendship was more-or-less on a roommate basis; we had our own circle of friends. After another two years, I returned to help him buy a condo. Our friendship grew to where we became best friends. I really had never had a best friend before. You know, someone that you could talk to with out judgment or anything like that.

A few years later, I meet this girl and we hit it off. I guess that's the way these things always start out. After a short time I moved in with the girl to help out with bills (and what not). Her mother had her leg amputated and was in a nursing home, so things were tough. Let me say that my friend and I were not living together at the time, so it's not like I had left him hanging with bills or anything.

I really started falling in love with this girl -- I don't know about you, but I've never really had too many friends or girlfriends.

I've always been kind of antisocial.

I've also had this thing in my head since I was a child that you could only really care about one person; maybe it was more like I only had enough love in my heart to give one person at a time. I was falling in love with this girl, and yet at the same time I felt like the love that I had for my friend was going away.

I also felt that I could control things with my mind. Its more like imposing my will on thing and making things happen by willing it to happen. Its been that way since I was a child. Maybe it sounds crazy, I know.

I was living with the girl, and my friend was staying with us off and on. The longer that me and the girl are together, the more my feelings for my friend get put on the back burner. One day, my friend said something that really upset me and made me angry at him. After that, I really didn't want to see him or talk to him for a while just to let things cool off. I never really let it be known to my friend that I was mad at him. I only told my girlfriend about my feelings. I normally would have gone right to my friend about it.

For some reason or other he couldn't tell that I did not want him around anymore so he would come over and hang out and I would ignore him. So one night he comes in with a huge pill and says that its methadone. I'm like, "whatever", I tell him that I had done that along time ago and all it did was make me sick and that I didn't want any part of it. I really didn't want to even look at him, so instead of telling him to leave I got this painting that I was working on and set it up in between us as a kind of curtian and started working on it until I went to bed.

We told him to stay there that night because he had taken some of the pill and drank a beer. He said that he was going to listen to some music and go to sleep. I woke up at about 5:30 to go to work, went in the living room and heard him snoring on the floor, and thought to myself "my, thats a loud snore!" For some reason I decided that I was going to call in (sick) to work, so I went and laid back down. I got up at 11:30 and walked back into the living room and looked down at my friend on the floor and noticed what looked like a hairball on his mouth.

I realized as I got closer that it was foam. I froze for just a second and then jumped back. Then I ran up to him and turned him on his side and his mouth emptied out and I could feel his skin was cold to the touch and the back of his arms and ears were blue.

I've never been the first person to find someone dead.

If you want, I'll post what happened after this, but thanks for letting me get this out, as I don't really have anyone to talk to. Thanks.
Note: I tried to retain the content and not correct anything that wasn't a glaring grammatical error. The original "style" should still be there, as much as it pains me to read.

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Hopefully one of the above will be more clear for potential respondents. Keep in mind, however, that this is "rammblers" first post and is unlikely to be followed with anything meaningful.

Welcome to TFP, ram, but this type of post is more suited for a Blog. Discussion topics generally present something we can discuss, rather than a rambling personal anecdote. Also, you absolutely must use paragraphs if you intend anyone to read your posts. I'm sorry to hear about your loss, and it really is a shame when someone takes their own lives, whether through carelessless or intention. I had a friend form a suicide pact with another friend and kill themselves with firearms, so I understand how you're feeling. Know that there wasn't much that you could've done differently, and hopefully you will be able to move forward with your life. It's really a shame that you couldn't communicate with your friend better and tell him how you felt, or simply get off your childish hangup about only being able to love one person at a time. Your heart has as much capacity to love as you give it. Although his death was ultimately not your fault, I'd hope you take some lessons about how you can affect people with your (honestly) immature communication skill.
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Old 08-12-2008, 02:31 PM   #3 (permalink)
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I am sorry to hear about your friend. I am sure that there is little that could have been done, whether it was an accident or intentional no one may ever know. Incredibly harsh reality to awaken to.
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Old 08-12-2008, 02:47 PM   #4 (permalink)
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Jinn, you know I love you, but this was a little much, don't you think?

rammbler, I'm sorry you had to go through such a harrowing experience, but you should not take responsibility to heart over a person who would become so despondent over the loss of a friendship.

Still, I hope you can take a measure of understanding away with you from this situation. Your life is not a vacuum. What you do and how you treat other people can have a palpable effect on the lives of others. Try to be more aware of life that is going on around you. You can't just shut everything else out. There is enough love to go around.
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Old 08-13-2008, 12:37 PM   #5 (permalink)
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Jinn, that is the funnest thing I've seen all week.

Ram, it's never easy losing a friend. It's even harder when you are the one to find them like that. One day at a time is all I can say.
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