Jinn, you know I love you, but this was a little much, don't you think?
rammbler, I'm sorry you had to go through such a harrowing experience, but you should not take responsibility to heart over a person who would become so despondent over the loss of a friendship.
Still, I hope you can take a measure of understanding away with you from this situation. Your life is not a vacuum. What you do and how you treat other people can have a palpable effect on the lives of others. Try to be more aware of life that is going on around you. You can't just shut everything else out. There is enough love to go around.
