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This is the wackiest situation I can recall being in.

I am a 22 year old male. I have one brother, a workaholic father, and an anxiety suffering, possibly over-loving mother (I break at saying co-dependent). My brother is gay; up till now I really haven't thought much about that, but it's never been a problem for me really.

This weekend my friends and I got together for Canada Day and did mushrooms, a last time for me becaus I'm moving away in 2 weeks. One of my friends seemed to be following me around a bit and there was, for lack of a better word, weird vibes going on. I was sitting on my bed with playing with my new laptop when he made laid down next me on the bed. I moved over, and he followed. I said such things as "no man, don't feel bad but no" a couple of times but he just kept coming so i got up and left for another room. He followed after me saying stuff but I was avoiding listening, but he did say quite loudly "only for you". I actually had to pretty much yell at him "no man. get yourself together".
After pacing around for a while, I tried to go to bed; this was of course impossible because of the mush. In fact I was still tripping pretty hard, and now all of a sudden had a whole new set of parameters to think about. Now I'm worried about my friend and just his general well being, but springing something on me like that while I was tripping has really thrown me for a loop. I actually got a STRONG peak lying there in bed of what I can only describe as an approximation of a female orgasm. I actually felt as though I were a woman, through and through.

I have always had difficulty talking to girls; I cannot communicate with them for the most part, especially one on one. All my close friends are guys. I have had only a handful of relationships and they have all been extreme in one way or another. I feel a lot of the time that I am just not acting the part right, uncomfortable in my own skin. Not all the time, but enough of the time.

Now here I am. The thing of it is, at the time and even after, I actually had no real desire to do anything. I did enjoy the fact that SOMEone wanted me at least, but really that was it. This all happened night before last. I saw him again tonight for Canada Day fireworks, and met his new girlfriend for the first time. The only reason I went was because I feel I should talk to him about what happened, because so far the plan of just ignoring it completely seems pretty dumb. I don't want this one jumping out at me down the road.

I don't really know what I'm asking for here, mostly I just wanted to get it out. Thanks people.

pig

yeah, i wouldn't worry about it overly much after you've had a chance to process it. shrooms/lsd can make weird connections in your mind - and i'm saying that for both you and your friend. sounds like a bit of an odd trip - it's probably a good thing to talk it out if you can; how did your buddy seem when you saw him on canada day? if he's straight, he could very easily be weirded out about it too. we've all got a lot of ideas / urges popping around in our heads that mix together to make us who we are...a trip can heighten some of those personality facets in ways we might not normally express.

i'd say the most important thing is to relax.

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MrFriendly

Pig has pretty much hit the nail on the head.

Man, shrooms and psychedelics can do some pretty interesting things. Both in how your friend acted, and in both how you perceived those actions. In my experience, psychedelics can make you face every demon you ever had, and even a whole bunch you didn't know about (well, a wicked back trip will).

And again, Pig is bang on the money, just relax, don't worry about it. You're 22, you've got plenty of time to figure out who you are and what you want. If you're a lil unsure about your sexuality, don't stress. I think it's pretty natural / normal for guys to sometimes question their sexuality, even have urges. I don't think that makes you any less of a man, and certainly doesn't mean you're gay.

So fuck it dude, don't worry about it, it's a small random and weird event in your life that will go on the pile of many, MANY more to come

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match000

No offense, but is that actually true? I know its somewhat true for girls (some statistics somewhere I heard on TV), but I've never heard anything about that for guys.

MrFriendly

My male friends and I are pretty open, and most of them have admitted that at one point they've thought about it. Hey, I went the extra step and gave it a try, really wasn't my thing though.

The point I'm trying to make though dude is I just don't think it's something to freak out about.

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World's King

You're wrong. You've just heard that it's okay for girls to question their sexuality and act on it. It's still a taboo for a guy to question himself and make out with another guy. (I've done it.)


It's okay for you to say that you will never question yourself but it's not okay to say that guys can't. That's just homophobic.

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analog

You both had a serious trip. If you are actually gay, leaving this episode without talking about it won't do much of anything.

I mean really... you have to be careful about taking seriously ANYTHING that occurs while on mind-altering substances. Don't pretend like it didn't happen, but I wouldn't bother scrutinizing it at all, either.