J.R.V.A.

A suitcase I found when I was a boy,
Inside it I carried my one special toy.
A little while later when I was a teen,
I wore a new back pack,
I felt I looked keen.
A young man of twenty,
I found some new bags,
I filled them up full,
With all of my rags.
The years passed quite slowly,
The luggage was older,
A cooler I kept,
To keep my drinks colder.
I carried my sacks,
And baggage around,
It became so heavy,
It drug on the ground.
So put it away,
I surely did,
No one would know,
If I kept it hid.
I locked it up tight,
Even threw some away,
But most was still there,
To my own dismay.
Then into my room,
Slowly I crept,
A sale was in order,
In action I leapt.
House cleaning in June,
On into July,
The baggage is thinning,
I’ve learned how to fly.
Cause isn’t a carry on,
Nary a nuff?
Who needs all those bags,
Why carry that stuff.
I may die tomorrow,
Or live for a while,
Whatever the outcome,
I’ve learned how to smile.

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

The picture frame is empty,
waiting for the brush
the look I get from far away,
gives me such a rush.

The painting of a picture,
that I want to see,
the strokes you tell remind me of,
a way I want to be.

The story told a different way,
portrays a different image,
a day unlike another one,
the turning of a page.

I was framed the other day,
when you spoke of me,
by painting my old tales of woe,
you showed how I could be.

The art we spew as we recall,
the memorie of another,
the fire of life is burning bright,
as we run for cover.

So think when you are painting,
your pictures to a friend,
it may be thee only picture,
remembered to the end.

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

My cd case is cracked and worn,
The one that holds the tune

I listen to the sound of love
Like weddings done in June

The music takes me back aways
To days when I would smile

I’d close my eyes and tap my foot
And lay with you a while

Breezy nights and sweaty skin
Love was in the making

Together we could save the world
The stars were ours for taking

We held each other oh so tight
A vow to not let go

Then something stole our cloud away
Our love forgot to grow

The pain we caused the other one
Hearts torn up to shreds

We squashed the lovely love we had
By thinking with our heads

Now the days are shorter still
When thoughts are not of you

Then on the radio the song of love
And then my day turns blue

Its time to toss away this cracked
and tired old cd

And find a new song to tap to
And realize your free

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

I woke to find the smell of bread
baking in the kitchen
My grandma was an early rise
the scones were in the making.

The sweet butter we poured it on
and jelly smeared all over
A glass of milk would wash it down
and then I'd have another.

My grand mama oh how she loved
to cook and feed us kids
The grilled cheese sandwich that she made
was magic from her fridge.

Grandma went to spend some time
in heaven with the angels
Now every time I smell fresh bread
Oh how my heart just swells.

I'll walk into the bakery
and close my eyes and dream
Of Grandmas pumpkin pie she made
all covered in whipped cream

Some day I think I might join with
my lovely old Grandma
We can sit and eat some scones,
and share em with Grandpa

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

Minx

I really like this! You really can paint a story with your words. Thanks for the great reads, love the last one as well. Looking forward to more...

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You've been a naughty boy....go to my room!

J.R.V.A.

Thanks for your comments on my stuff, and letting you know that it really makes me feel good when the praise comes from one that writes such as you.

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

The gift

Once I was gazing at the sunset when my mind awoke
I almost grasped it then swiftly it was gone
Other times I almost had it again
Then bang someone spoke and the moment was lost
The other night dreaming I dreamed of a place
Where souls were together for all the same cause
I studied them closely as they gathered round
In front of a man with presents in hand
He spoke somewhat softly as he passed them out
One by one slowly they held out their hands
And as they received then quickly were gone
The gifts were all different as people can be
The smiles that he gave all shined at me
I moved a bit closer so that I could hear
The last of the souls collecting his gift
I heard him tell this soul the present is yours
The key to get back is learning to share
I woke from my dream and danced for a bit
I watched the sun rise and thought for a while
A new day has come to spread what I’ve found
The gift of my self to be passed around

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

Minx

Just beautiful! You have such a great gift...I do so enjoy reading all your work!

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You've been a naughty boy....go to my room!

Angel

Steve...
Some beautiful work coming out of you...as usual. Of course, I expect nothing less, after all, you are the King!
Keep it coming. You've come a long way baby!

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In the depth of winter, I finally learned that there was within me an invincible summer.
~Albert Camus

SaltPork

This is all very overwhelming to read at once, but what a bold, collection of work. I am duly impressed by what you are able to put into words. There are so many things I can relate in my own life to your work here, J.R.V.A. Thanks.

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It was like that when I got here....I swear.

J.R.V.A.

Minx, angel, and wrkime. I have read a lot of all of your writings, and to have you three comment on my stuff in this way makes me feel very proud. Thank you. It means a lot to me.

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

Esen

I really liked the "gift"

Im glad that you share your talents

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~Esen
What is everyone doing in my room?

J.R.V.A.

Thank you Chauncey... It really makes me smile when people comment on my writings. It makes me belive that in some small way they are O.K., that maybe they mean something to someone, and that maybe there is a purpose for me in this life. Thanks again

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

Chance is the name of the one that is lost,
The wrong turn was taken when left was the right.

The right being left or is it the wrong?

Is chance who we see or the chosen we've found.

The question is really are we were we are,
Because of a moment that we stopped to talk
Or talked for a moment to be where we need.

Taking a chance along for the trip
Tripping along for a day to be free.

Is we who we see or do we see what
We think we have found, or stumbled across.

A chance to be free, free to take chances
Is life for the living or living for life.

When you look at you do you like what you see
Or have you become the one that is lost.

Don't take a chance it matters not any
A trick to disquise the same end result.

A chance is the magic I wave with my wand
A moment is time we all have to own
Do what you can to uncover the truth.

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

i8one2

My friend I did exactly what you wrote about so eloquently and it changed my life. I have found my truth by taking that chance, I am now bound by that freedom forever.

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LEATHER, LATEX and LACE "SSC"
"Nothing That Gives Pleasure is Bad"

Quality is for those who know
what they want and are at peace with what they have.

"S/M is about emotion; the erotic tension between my impulse toward something and my resistance against it."-- Virginia Barker

J.R.V.A.

I took a chance, and changed your way of life..... Someone knows what there talking about... Thank you very much. Your reply means a lot to me

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

Angel

With every chance comes change, with every change comes growth, and with growth comes life. I am where I am today for having the strength to allow myself to take chances.

Thank you for writing this...it gives me a deeper sense of appreciation for the courage it takes to risk it all.

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In the depth of winter, I finally learned that there was within me an invincible summer.
~Albert Camus

J.R.V.A.

Grilled upon an open pit, like pig after the slaughter,
drilled right through my tired brain, waiting for the laughter.

Led around by nose halter, rope strung through my ring,
breathing's hard whilst yanked upon, wishing I could sing.

Stolen smiles trampled upon, kicked under the rug,
frowns that grow and eat away, worse than any drug.

Feelings quashed and whisked away, feeling their not worthy,
invalidation rears it's head, we'll talk after tuesday.

Hope was lost when you gave up, wishing for another
all was lost when you left me, I know of no other.

Sick of all these sickening days, wanting to break free,
wont you leave and let me see, what's inside of me.

As the day progress's to, the angry still of night,
I hope for you the stars will stay, for you always bright.

Me I'll take the early bus, to a place thats near,
to a place I'll sit and shed, one last final tear.

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

Angel

Um, I have much to say about this one...in private.

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In the depth of winter, I finally learned that there was within me an invincible summer.
~Albert Camus

J.R.V.A.

A shimmering of light raindrops
glisten through the rainbow

The warm summer is cooled a bit
as clouds block out the sun

The beauty of a smile I saw
brightens up my day

The memory of the one I love
makes me dance and play

Holding you and kisssing once
a soft one on the cheek

Makes me want to say come here
spend with me the day

Holding hands and looking to
the beauty I have missed

Remembering the bond we have
knowing what I wished

Today I walk upon a path
from whence I took the fork

Alone at last I chose my way
when I left the park

The tunnel has a dim light through
which a light does shine

Knowing that someday you
will be forever mine

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

One day I sat upon a log and tried to catch a hare
A hair fell down upon my foot
Splittin hairs and seconds gone
A split second was all it took
Second place was good enough
A place to rest my weary bones
The rest was gone with no mercy
Mercy me I heard you say
You heard the word of time tick on
Time tick ticking ticking away
I looked away to see the hare
The hare sitting atop the log

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

Uglyful screamer yelling at me
Nightmares are real when you hold the key

Scars from the day the night became one
Wanting this roller coast ride to be done

Screeching and scratching your voice gives me chills
Knowing how wanting to die really feels

Losing a tooth was better than this
When you are gone it's you I won't miss

Asking myself was it worth the time
Losing my eyes would be worth the dime

Sleeping away my thoughts arent of you
Wanting a time when I can say "who"

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

mml

Wow

I'm fairly new to the site and there is so much here. I haven't finished reading all your poetry, but I am enjoying the process. What I really like is the diversity of topics and moods. Thanks for sharing.

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Human beings, who are almost unique in having the ability to learn from the experience of others, are also remarkable for their apparent disinclination to do so."
-Douglas Adams

Minx

Sometimes the raw emotion behind your work just stuns me. It is quite good, disturbing at times, lighthearted at others. Please keep it up.

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You've been a naughty boy....go to my room!

J.R.V.A.

Thanks mml, I appericate the comments. Makes me feel good. Thank you minx, when you say stuff like this, it makes me want to keep writing.

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

Summers fling without the ring,
Turned into a winter's fire.

Warming up the cold frostbite
melting off the frosted ice.

When you came I took a look
and found my sunshine brighter.

Now the days are paved with rays,
loving you's like laughter.

Sweet essence of beauty flows,
when I look at you.

All the time I speak your name,
makes my heart feel new.

Walls of falls come tumbling down,
loving you's like chocolate.

Holding you and kissing you,
thankful your my mate.

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

My faithful old mutt
Follows me all around
When I'm tired or cranky,
form him theres no sound

He loves me to pieces
Come day or come night
We roll on the gorund
we play and we fight

The love he has for me
is true as can be
He loves all my quirks
he lets me be

My bestest friend
Ive ever had
He licks on my face
when I am sad

We go for a walk
And he likes to run
My old faithful mutt
we have lots of fun

__________________
And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

Another door opens I heard her say
As my mind slams shut once again

Prying the pins off of the old worn out hinges,
Sometimes I can't let myself in

The doors are my band when I want to break through
The other side might hold the key

The key to this troubled and cracked tired heart
With oil I just might set it free

The creaky old house where I lay my head
The threshold is where I begin

I'll carry the weight while I laugh and I smile
This time I know I sure will win

A door with a key to the lock on my heart
It's time to let someone else in

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

Will you take me to a place
That I've never been
Will you show me how to live
Like I've never seen

Do you want the same thing I
Wish for all the time
Will you love me and give me
You heart as you have mine

Will you help me up the stairs
As we both grow older
Will you warm my freezing bones
As the days grow colder

Can you help me to attest
True love isnt dead
Will you spend all of your days
In the same old bed

Today our life begins again
Our love is surley true
Me and you loving our life
Finding things anew

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

An edit of a quote I made
bought it back up from the grave

The words I took gave me new thread
even though the words were dead

I post, reply, and then your gone
you say how are you doing hon

The profile of a pm dinner
Makes me feel like I'm a winner

I search for my new buddy clover
even though I know it's over

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

Astral rules can't hold me back if my soul shines through
The spark of life is burning bright, as thoughts turn back to you
We are one I heard you say, as you kiss another
The ghost of me is shining through, you know whats the bother
Wispy willows swaying in the stormy hollow sky
I look toward the moon and cry, oh how I tried to fly
The night is long as death itself, coming round the bend
I long to hear the sound of hope, whispering the end
The sun it hides behind the moon, wishing it could shine
A broken heart, a frowning face, are all I can call mine
The fire burns a single match, then it burns my finger
Thoughts of flight look easy now, memories that linger
The day is gone the night has won as wisdom turns to want
Needs turn into daily life, knowing that I can't

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

Whence a lass was yearning for a carefree laggard bloke,
to skip away the day with her, and hear him tell a joke
Wherefore thee unaltered chap, went wishing for a fille
to make his day a pleasent way, looking for a thrill
Asfore these two harum-scarum folks turned round the bend
tripping into worlds apart, together in the end
Thereas wondrous bright lights shine
they both had seen the sign
Henceforth ebullience fills there days
Holding hands and gazing forth,taking in the waves

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

Smiles become life as I use them as such
Friends from another not wanting to much

Looking around here I start to see clearly
Holding my children that I love so dearly

Wishing for naught, I have all I need
As my liitle one sleeps, I sit and I read

Loving the things, I have been given
Enjoying my life, playing and living

Today I am happy, I like who I see
The one I call me, chooses to be

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

My grandpa used to tell me tales of days that were
long past.
I used to sit and wonder why he told me of such stuff.
He told me things about his life that I thought were
Funny.
I listened to him spin his yarns, Into the night
Sometimes.
We laughed ,We cried, We talked somemore, Until the night
was over.
I used to think sometimes that these talks were boring.
But now I think,Id give it all, For grandpa to be here.
Cause I cant think just what he said, Now that he is
gone,
But the feeling that I got, When my grandpa was near,
Was safe and warm and words that soothed my angry
Heart.
Were what my grandpa gave me.

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

The best

Cowering in the corner his hands shield his head
As dishes and words are hurled ‘round.

Frightened and sad as all that he knows
Rips and tears at each other letting pain grow.

Anger is born leading the way to tomorrow
Learning the way of his short life today.

Watching and seeing is what he becomes
We’ve taught him the way of his world.

As seasons pass he grows to hate life
We wonder we he got it from.

We sure did our best we mumble quite softly
As we bail him out one more time.

Another child born when will we learn
The cycle can end within us.

What will we do this time around
Let our best be the best we can do?

Or learn different ways to treat other life’s
As we lay his short one to rest.

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

The blood glistens as the blade catches the moonlight
Tommorow this night will be just a memory
I sit on the edge of this bed one last time
Tommorow I'll be in Missouri
I cant get the feeling that its really over
Tommorow it might just sink in
Sliced through the neck of the one that I loved
Tommorow I'll wish I had'nt done it
Your boy got away before I could do him
Tommorow he'll get it like you
I think for right now I will sleep for a while
Tommorow it might be a dream

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

Yesterday I walked with butterflies around me
I smiled as I watched them in flight
I strolled for a while and inhaled the air
Enjoying the beauty around me
I stopped for a moment and listened a bit
The songs of the birds gave me rise
The waterfall splashing relaxed my tired soul
The fish swimming gayly below
Finding a patch, of soft flowing grass
I laid my head down and I slept
I woke from the rain, kissing my cheek
And loved the warm breeze that I’d found
Unleashing my clothes, I swam for a bit,
And ate from the tree of the pears
Contentment inside, I wandered back home
And laughed as I enjoyed the ride

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

Fathers Gone


Tears roll down this lonesome highway
Tears my heart apart to know
Thinking of the day he left me
Fathers gone now live alone.

No one needs to lose their father
And no one needs to live alone
Let alone a young boy yearning
To hear his daddy say the words
Words that never came out from him
Now he's gone to live alone.

Hardened by the words he longed for
Wonders why were never said
Was it cause the boy was worthless
Or cause the dad knew not of love.

Now the boy that lives alone
Love he's searching for his own
Open up your hearts all to him
Let him know he's not alone

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

J.R.V.A.

What a beautiful sunset, my girl said to me,
As I watched my light slip away.
Grinning outside, as inside I weep,
The glow was my days one last hope.
Smelling the gloom of lightlessness cover,
Eyes shrieking as they dilate.
The moon burns the sun, Tis blood that I see,
As mountains gulp down the sweet nectar.
Climbing the ladder, of yesterdays woes,
I think of the radiance and smile.
Tomorrow will come, I cannot run,
The primer was lit long ago.
For now I’ll just hide, let light shine inside,
Believing is what comes to haunt me.

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And as she plays,
her sweet song of laughter
floats through the air
and warms my heart

Minx

I really love reading your work. Always I feel a little tug on the heartstrings. Thank you so much for sharing.

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You've been a naughty boy....go to my room!