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Weighing my options was never my bag,
I looked no more farther than now.
No questions of future crossed this here path,
Living kept me far from dying
The irony of life, is what’s kept me here,
Alive and breathless whilst I run.
Alone in the hills, I think of the one,
The time that my dime turned to run.
Tomorrow is here, as I sit and stew,
Forgetting the day left behind.
One foot in the door, the other will follow,
My shoes leave the mark of my path.
As I lay to rest, I smile inside,
For now I can rest and reside.
Dreams do not come, no pleasure for me,
The nightmares seem oh so elusive.

Free of the chains, that once consumed me

I go where I want, I'm happy to be

I've hurt lots of folks, throught my life

God kept me alive, now I must start

Today I am helpful, I'm doing my best

To payback my god, He'll do the rest

The Norm

The portal is open I kiss my ass bye.
I jump thru the eye my lips seal my fate.
Looking back now no longer a choice,
the day turns to gray as I thrust my form.
Forming a hollow my ears start to burn,
I hear a voice calling no longer a nun.
The squeak that was oiled is slippery and wet,
I'm wanting a drink of that thats been drunk.
Desire is waiting to search for a while,
and lust is the one that's found in the end.
Apart from the school of nox in my head,
I swim for a while and wish I was dead.
Glutton's my friend, I inhale quite deeply,
Anger beside, I sleep somewhat soundly.
And where in the world has this door been opened,
or is this this world, that lies deep beneath.
Pity and guilt have become the norm,
the norm of the norm, is what I run from.

Growing up normal is what other people were.
Normal is all I wished I could be.
Jealous of kids that lived normal lives,
wanting a normal dinner just once.
The teens were not normal for me,
the normal ones had what I could'nt get.
My drinking was normal, if I'd been a fish,
the normal life of a drug addict fool.
I quit like the normal alcholics could quit,
and now I'm afraid of winding up normal.
Normal to me, is now what i fear,
the normal folks scare me when they lurk about.
Today I am me, and me is'nt normal,
I'm happy to be other than normal.
You see, just to me, normal's not normal,
abnormal is normal if you get my meaning.
A twist on this word of the normal word writer,
a lesson in normal from one that is ?
Are you getting sick of reading of normal,
or is it becoming normal to read this short word.
Normal noooorrrmall normaaaallll I'm insane,
haha ho ho he he hhaa ha hooeee who's normal

Abstract thoughts dull my keen senses
My perception is just an illusion
Seeking existence of fantasy’s dorm
Floating in space Am I here
Opening doors with nothing behind
Where in the world will I find
Time is the place were I’ve left my mind
Real is that that that is in it
Gone are the wishes of souls left behind
Here is the term and the place
Lucid am I for here I am now
At least that’s what I think I see

The tumbleweed tumbles toward the tall tree,
The tree traps the wind and shelters the weed.

The rain wets the dry dusty dirt from above,
The dirt turns to mud and slows down the bug.

The bug climbs aboard the giant round weed,
And off for a ride the weed takes the bug.

A new world to find the bug rolls along,
Going wherever the wind whisks it on.

Ending up miles from where he was born,
The bug takes a stroll upon his new lawn.

The sun ,then a shadow, a foot stepped upon!

The bug is no more, the wind carrys on,
To blow when it wants, and carry us on.

The Rules
What are the rules that we seem to follow?
Are they our own rules or ones of another?
Do you follow them when they serve your purpose?
Or follow them only when there all thats left?
The rules that were given when I was a tot,
have changed o'er the yaers and now I've forgot.
I want to learn rules so that I can break them,
I laugh out loud now the rules that I've broken.
Why do us all have so many rules?
The ruler knows why, so why don't you ask em.

Tonite is the nite I lay down to rest
I think of the time when I was the best

Tommorow I give my crown to my son
The best of the best, I know he has won

Passing the torch is'nt easy for me
I try to hold on, clutching the key

A new day has come its time to hold back
Releasing my grip, knowing I lack

As I slip away, I ponder my plight
And silently enjoy, my new found flight

I'm singing and dancing and twirling around
I'm laughing and smiling and chuckling out loud
The fact that I'm breathing is sure a fine thing
I woke up today and looked at the sun
The beauty of life Is such a great blessing
And living life fully has become my quest
A tune in my head keeps tappin my foot
Today I am happy for the gift of life
Spreading my smile will be my new goal
The birds and the flowers will make my heart go
I say to you all wherever you live
Go look in the mirror and see who you are
Smile to yourself and lets get this started
Hold on to your hat and dont be forgotten

The Deal

Collabarating with the devil
I made a fine deal
Except the paper I signed was lost
Now I have to look to my memory
I reach for the files and find there all wet
And thoughts turn to nightmare's when I come across
The wicked one laughs as I piss my pants
I laugh to myself as I sit on his couch
I'm up for a game, If you see fit
I'll challenge myself to swim to the cross
The movies I see they all seem so blurry
And when he looks at me his face is all wrinkeld
You call me and ask if we can compromise
The phone on the wall's gone along with the ringer
The deal I made was a very fine deal
I'm trying to think if it really was real

Fresh Air


My soul is at war with the company I keep
Why is the water so blue when it rains?
The air is so thick I want a thin slice
You followed me here and left a small trace
The moon's always full yet we don't see it that way
The sun burns my my skin on a cold cloudy day
When is the time I was told I'd be happy?
I follow the path and choose the left fork
The spring in my step is what bounces me on
Alack and alas is my secret swan song
A breath of fresh air whisks me away
You are the one I dream of today
Lust on my lips I spread my cheeks wide
And holler out loud as the echo resides
The silence of ladys looking out yonder
Reminds me of times when I was a lot younger
The words I have heard will last me a lifetime
And suddenly fire brings in all the coldness

Where is the love that thou promised me?
You keep it inside, where no one can see.

I know that you feel love, I give it to you,
but inside I’m hurting, what else can I do

I’ve loved you so long, it seems forever,
but give it back to me, I feel it never.

I guess that I should, not feel this way,
cause I love you to me, you did not say.

I’m sorry I hurt you, its now I know over,
I just thought I was, the perfect lover.

The love that you promised, was not to be,
I hope you are happy, single and free.

I stood atop a knarly log,
trying to learn balance
Falling off I bumped my nog,
as I tore my pants
Looking up I saw a tree,
swaying in the breeze
Blood was squriting out my knee,
I fumbled for my keys
Driving down the road a ways,
looking for a clinic
Suddenly I saw a haze,
morphine did the trick
Tommorow I will lay a while,
something I must ponder
Balancing is not my style,
I was born to wander

Wow you have a lot of talent and creativity. Thanks for sharing you just made my day!

Thank you. I apperciate it. Cheers

The fall of all is were I lie
I think of you and then I cry
You left without a broken trace
Eclipsed by darkness gone in haste
The sun no longer burns my skin
I no longer wish to win
A breath a toke a weezing cough
The butterfly is now a moth
Yearning for a cooler breeze
A rope tied between two tall trees
I swing a while until I'm found
Tis then they put me in the ground

just from a pacing stand point, try
"I no longer have any wish to win"

or something...you need a few more syllables there to keep the flow.

otherwise, i love it...it floats, and doesn't really sink in until the end, and the tone changes so seriously that it makes me then trace over all those words again, and really brings out the best in them. thanks for sharing one more time...

Talking to a man today I learned a precious lesson
Listening to what he said while speaking of his blessing
At first his words were not much heeded
When then I heard one that was needed
He spoke of life and love and travels
He told me how my fears were trammels
His eyes were gentle wanting more
They whispered of a man at war
Look to your dreams and follow them,
they'll bring you far my new found friend
He smiled a weary borrowed grin
And then he laughed and smiled again
We love this life until it's over
It's then we realize who's our lover
Don't in your haste wait till the end
Today's the day to start to mend
Open up your mind and shout out to the ones you have left out
Let your heart and soul fly free be like the one you want to be

Hmmmm...Thank's chavos, I tried putting it in there, and it seemed to break it up to much...I agree with you though, it needs something else.. I will try a few different ideas. Thanks again fro the input, it means a lot to me that you took the time

Very well done, I like your writing, it's similar to my older poems..

Good job!

Again you have left me just breathless with the intensity of your work. Thank you!

Thank you... Coming from one that writes, and understands, as you, your comments mean a lot to me. Thank you minx

A year of winds blew past my heart
my chest still beats though ripped apart
I look to see your eyes they shine
aloof alas the memory's mine
I held you in my arms so tight
a gust of air can't make it right
The beauty of the souls that twist
is that someone has got their wish
A tear rolls down my wrinkled face
the salt tastes like 12 months of mace
I know I knew I won't forget
you know you knew since we first met
A scared young boy dressed as a man
believing that he never can
He don't deserve to have and hold
at least thats what he has been told
Four seasons passed and from them shine
the wonder of a girl so fine
A stich in time of my lifeline
is where I know someone in time
Maybe today or still tommorow
I'll learn to smile and bury sorrow
For know I send a hug and kiss
to let you know that I still miss
You took a chance and then you flew,
I want to say, Thank you for you

We spent the day looking away
The eyes no longer seem to meet
We loved a lot and lost much more
A word or two is all we've left
The touch I yearn for's out of reach
The smile's are long forgotten now
No holding hands and singing songs
The lyrics blend into the night
A love song was a twisted tune
A broken heart left here to burn
We love and hate walking the line
The road is forked toward the meadow
The grass still sways with summers breeze
It's time to make toothpicks of trees
A look from you and then your gone
Todays the day to carry on

I so do enjoy your words and you have again left me just stunned with a few of your lines. I like the last poem you just posted but the previous one......holy cow did it hit me. I love a few lines in it....they just tug at me in a way.
And you are most deserving - I hope you realize that and find your happiness! :)

Thank you Minx, you always give me a smile..

The wispy weeping willow drops it's locks on me

As I look for a door a wonderwind picks up and shakes my tree

A twisted arm breaks off and stops my kitty cat from breathing

Life has passed as still the leaves sway with the gentle breeze

A new dawn comes with snow the branches look quite heavy

We saw the wood to bring the heat to cold and weary bones

I weep for change is where my willow will be found abundant

A seed is planted for the ones that will come after me today

The mighty mite may move more of a memory of a tree

Screeching to a stop I slide into a heavy bus
The bus is us as we become the turning of the wheels
Rolling down the hill I find a shiny new wooden nickle
And trade it to a man for an old worn out dingy dime
Climbing up the ladder of the rungs of destiny
Watching as the rope is long as far a I can see
I stall a while to get a glimpse of something that is nice
Then one by one I step ahead and enjoy my lifes climb

Beautiful as always. You made me cry.
One year...my how time flies!
Big hugs your way and...
Thank you for you my beautiful friend.
As Always,
~Angel~

I stepped to the door and gave a hard knock
who's there came a voice through the crack in the glass
I answered it's me though I knew not the voice
the door slowly opened and I stepped inside
The place was a mess and the man looked at me
is that you he said as I smlied yes it's me
I walked inside looking at povertys rest
the boy wondered who was this strange looking man
Your uncle is here to talk to you son
I grasped hold his hand and I asked him to come
We went to the diner and he ate and he ate
we went to the store and bought shoes for his feet
He spoke somewhat softly and carried a smile
he don't understand what he gave me that day

I met a boy that couldnt walk
his body twisted, could barley talk

I spoke to him and asked his name
he smiled at me, was glad I came

I looked into his eyes of blue
the gratitude was oh so true

He was so gald I took the time
his eyes they sparkle and they shine

I left and he is in my mind
That boy that day I left behind

You have soo much work and it's all soo good! Have you tried getting it published?

I am going to hijack your thread here....but only to praise you!

I want everybody who reads this talented work that is here of J.R.V.A.'s to know that this man has only been writing for ONE year!
His gift never ceases to amaze me. I have watched him grow in his abilities, that came so natural to him, and I am so thrilled with all of his accompishments.
You make me proud my friend. And as NiceGuy asked, and I have so many times before, when comes the book?
As Always,
~Angel~

Thanks guys...Blushing... I don't know....Thank you very much for the praise though, it really means a lot to me.

The fog wreaks havoc in my psyche
I try to pedal on my trike
The hill ahead is crimson mist
the pebbles churn into a schist
Imagining a downward spiral
the thoughts turn toward something viral
Eyes that flicker beams of hope
remembering the days of tope
Drawn by dreams of pulchritude
I feel somehow I'm kinda crude
A soul that whispers in the dark
the journey that I must embark
Peace within is up that hill
it's there where I must pedal still

Keep peddaling my sweet friend. You know it is there. So do I, I've seen it within you!
Great work!

~Angel~

Your words almost seem to be accompanied by music, thank you for sharing this beauty with us

Always flying
Never stopping
Never perching on the rail

Wings a-flutter
As I sputter
Trying to catch you, I fail

Jerky movements
Such long moments
A day, for you, must be a year

But no longer
For you faltered
Now, on my desk, you are smeared.

I wrote that as a fly buzzed around my head and drove me nuts.