raeanna74

Hey girls. I just wanted to call for your prayers, good vibes, and well wishes for a friend of ours here. I spoke with her today and she shared her news with me. I'm not going to go into any details but I wanted to let you know that Amethyst may be MIA for a short time. Please keep her in your thoughts and prayers and hopefully she'll be able to return to our ranks again soon.

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My Karma just ran over your Dogma.

maleficent

was just thinking about her today, and hoped she was OK.

Please send good wishes and thoughts her way....

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diddagirl

I will certainly be thinkin good thoughts for her

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StormBerlin

she will be in my prayers

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Eclipse26

I hope all works out. Send her well wishes.

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fallenangel

I missed something, but now i'm all worried, Amethyst, best of my wishes, i hope whatever is going on pans out in your best interest sweetheart!

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raeanna74

Don't be worried. She is safe and will be cared for. She is lonesome for now.
Thanks all for the encouragement. I will pass it on.

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"Always learn the rules so that you can break them properly." Dalai Lama
My Karma just ran over your Dogma.

Redgirl

I'll be thinking good thoughts for you Amethyst. Take care of yourself!

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lurkette

Good thoughts and love going out for amethyst.

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sexymama

Amethyst is in my thoughts and prayers!

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It's not about being perfect; it's about developing some skill at managing imperfection.

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sillygirl

I missed something too apparently.. I haven't been around much lately.

Amethyst babe, we'll miss you til you return!

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Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly-Rose Franken
....absence makes me miss him more...

amonkie

I was starting to worry when I hadn't seen any journals from her in the last couple days.... glad to hear she's still ok.... You're still in my prayers girl!

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Calling from deep in the heart, from where the eyes can't see and the ears can't hear, from where the mountain trails end and only love can go... ~~~ Three Rivers Hare Krishna

raeanna74

Well I got a call from her yesterday afternoon and she MIGHT be back come Monday or Tuesday this week. Hopefully home with all that she needs and back to see us soon.

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"Always learn the rules so that you can break them properly." Dalai Lama
My Karma just ran over your Dogma.

maleficent

How's our friend doing? Any word from her?

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sillygirl

I miss amethyst

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Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly-Rose Franken
....absence makes me miss him more...

raeanna74

She is back today. We should be hearing from her soon.

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"Always learn the rules so that you can break them properly." Dalai Lama
My Karma just ran over your Dogma.

Amethyst

Hello everyone!
I am out of the hospital. Not a few days after I got home I find out my parents are getting a divorice. Eveything is still messed up but i feel like i have some coping skills now that i try!I don't really feel like killing myself anymore I am on a total new set of medications that I really think are helping I will post more later in my journal if i can. My computer is really messed up and I never know when it is going to work so I will send messages when I can I am so sorry that I haven't been around.

maleficent

Sorry about your folks...

I am so glad to see you back here, you've been missed.

Glad you are getting the help that you deserve and things are starting to look up.

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Amethyst

Yeah this thing with my parents is so hard and is going to be even harder on my kids I just don't know what to do it has been making me very manic. Which I told the doctor yesterday and he thinks that it is nothing but stress. I just wish the had brought this on me in the hospital because it would have been a little easier to deal with but no they didn't. I am just so upset and have been crying I just am at the end of my ropes with my family I am almost about to say no family talk to me and I will be just with my husband and kids. I don't know what do you ladies think?

maleficent

There's an old joke that says. Doc, it hurts when I do this. And the doctor responds, OK, don't do that.

If it bothers you to discuss family with anyone other than the doctor, then don't do it. Don't repress it completely, because that doesn't help you. But if people are just dumping on you, tell them to stop, that you have to think about yourself right now.

YOU are what is important, and your children.

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Redgirl

Hi Amethyst- glad you're back among us. Sorry everything is so shitty for you. From what I read in your journal you need a break from your family. They seem to be immune to both your physical and mental pain. You need to take care of yourself first, then your kids, then your husband. Beyond that I don't think you have the energy for anyone else.

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Amethyst

I agree with you all but it is harder said then done. I just need to focus better I guess. It's just so hard and then I wake up and the first phone call is from mom complaining about dad and my sister is ignoring me. I just don't know.

amonkie

Maybe one thing you can do is give everyone a little notice, and say something like" tomorrow I'm turning off the phone. If you need anything, I'll talk to you the next day". And just have a day to recover.

And welcome back, Sweetie!!!! We missed you

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Calling from deep in the heart, from where the eyes can't see and the ears can't hear, from where the mountain trails end and only love can go... ~~~ Three Rivers Hare Krishna

Amethyst

Thanks so much for your advice. And I went out of town last night and today to get out and get away from things.

SixEdxMia

Awah My babe.

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sillygirl

YAY! I heart amethyst!! I missed you honey!

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Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly-Rose Franken
....absence makes me miss him more...

raeanna74

Bummer for Amethyst. Looks like her computer is down for the time being. Sounds like it's her motherboard. Hopefully they can get it up and running again and we can see her regularly here again.

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"Always learn the rules so that you can break them properly." Dalai Lama
My Karma just ran over your Dogma.

Amethyst

Hey guys my computer is f******** . So, I will be on as much as I can. I really miss my journal and posting. I still need a ton of prayers things are really rough right now I am in a bad situation. Thanks for all your thoughts and prayers and somone start back up the book club and I will get the book but I can't maintain it right now. I miss you all.

amonkie

Great to see you back here, Amethyst! I'm still praying for ya

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Calling from deep in the heart, from where the eyes can't see and the ears can't hear, from where the mountain trails end and only love can go... ~~~ Three Rivers Hare Krishna

Amethyst

Hey guys my computer is messed up and I don't know when we are going to have the money to get a new one. I am supposed to be having surgery in the morning but I am very sick so I don't know that the doctor is going to do it. My life has been so hard lately. I appreciate all the prayers and support please keep them coming. I start to think things can't get worse and then they do all the time I just don't understand why I deserve all of this crap??????

maleficent

Hang in there, Amethyst... Better days are coming...

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Redgirl

Good luck, girl. I'm really hoping things get better for you and real soon. You sound like you've hit the end of your rope and are hanging by the knot.
Never underestimate the power of positive thinking...

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cali

I'm sorry to hear that you are having to go thorugh something like this, I too am dealing with a situation similar it is our son who is bipolar w/impulse control disorder. even with meds, our desire for a "normal " day ( no arguing, no fights, suicide attempts, law being called, hospital stays, dirty looks etc,etc,etc) looks real dim, (maybe in the future) the ones that do come along we cherish.

[QUOTE]I am just so upset and have been crying I just am at the end of my ropes with my family I am almost about to say no family talk to me and I will be just with my husband and kids. I don't know what do you ladies think?

My husband and I vowed to each other that if one of us needed to retreat to heal that we would cut ourselves off from whatever was causing the pain in the first place ...be it family, friends, co workers, whatever.
And once we had our feet back unders us to "withstand the friction from our families that we would allow them back in, BUT ONLY ON OUR TERMS, " if they tried to start anything they were asked to leave.
We are firm believers that you must heal yourself, first. it sounds as if you have a supporting husband, let him stand in front of you for a while until you get back on your feet. then, when you feel that you are ready, deal with family issues (they just might work themselves out).
Sorry, for rambling, but if you can understand my post perhaps it may help you.

God Bless you, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

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amonkie

*Hugs* Amethyst, We're here for you girl. Just take it day by day, or even hour by hour if you need to. You're such a strong and beautiful woman, don't forget we love you!!!

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Calling from deep in the heart, from where the eyes can't see and the ears can't hear, from where the mountain trails end and only love can go... ~~~ Three Rivers Hare Krishna