esotar

I flew to England to be with her for a couple of weeks, and I thought we were going to start discussing details on how I could move there permanantly. She was a right bitch to me as soon as I got there, and by the end of the first week she told me she was not in love with me. I really did not see it coming. I really love this womon, and it's hard letting her go. She and I met in an online lesbian chat room, and we've been talking to one another for months. We spent nearly two weeks together this past summer, and I really thought she was "the one" and I know that even now she still loves me, as I do her. The physical distance between us got in the way.....but also our different lifestyles. She is much more "middle-of-the-road", while Im a total "aging hippie" dyke. Anyway........I love her very much.....and I probably always will.

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JadziaDax

Sometimes this happens... and it really sucks. I'm sorry to hear that the feelings weren't mutual.

But here's the bright side of things: There is someone out there for you. I truly believe that it happens when you least expect it.

I hope the best for you... but in the meantime, you have us

lurkette

I'm so sorry - this sucks. But I'm glad you found this out before you moved to England to be with her.

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sexymama

So sorry to hear your sad news. Hang in there and know that when the time is right there just may be some wonderful hippie out there for you who lives closer to home.

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Minx

My condolances as well. Broken hearts are very slow at mending it seems.

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SiphonX

Online lesbian chatroom eh? Yeah, those breakups are the worst. But seriously, sorry, I know it sucks, it's happened to most of us at least one time and I'm sure we can all relate, take it easy.

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Finchie

She made you fly all the way to England so that she could tell you that she doesn't love you? Sorry, but that seems extremely fucked up to me. Normally, I'd say it is better to tell someone that the relationship is over face to face, but not if the other person flies from another country and plans to stay in yours for several weeks.
As for "I will always love her forever"...everyone says this after a breakup. Maybe you really do love her, I don't know. But you've only spent two weeks together? Can you really be sure that she is your soulmate after 2 weeks?
I know you're feeling really badly now, but just remember, time heals all wounds. You'll feel better eventually. If you're just moping around the house, stop it. Go find an activity to do. Take up a hobby. Do ANYTHING which will get your mind off her.
Sorry if any of this comes off as being harsh. I've kind of been in your position before, although nowhere near as drastic. I remember letting someone make me miserable for awhile. Now, I kick myself in the ass everytime I remember how pathetic I was (I am in no way implying that you are, but I really was). I got over it, and can honestly say that I'm a better person after experiencing it. Anyway, I hope you feel better and get over her soon. And like someone above me said, you'll always have us

Baileys

I agree with Finchie. Try to get over it as soon as you can. I also can relate to you still loving them even though it is over. It's hard to let go when you really like someone and can see you spending the rest of your life with them. I had this happen to me last summer and .. hee hee.. I was able to get my revenge, but that still does not have my mind wondering to thoughts of him. He is great in bed and we had so much in commen, it was just SO easy. I still think of him and fantise of him. However, it's not in bed, it's of him coming up to me while I'm in a real sexy outfit saying he made a mistake and me turning on my heals and saying 'YO!, you can't touch this!'

We are here.
We are grounded.
Seek solice here.

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