WinchesterAA

My last couple of days have been very realistic. Unnaturally realistic.

I'm 22, and I live in Houston, Texas. I've been with the same girl for 3 years now, and everything up until this point is best described as a miscommunication.

Now what I mean by that, is that for as long as I can remember I've had this notion that the people around me weren't seeing the same things I do. In some instances, my response was significant, because it was the only response that was something other than complete forfeiture. Or, in some cases, in spite of dramatic support of business as usual, I opted for a complete rebuild.

Why this involves a girl - I met her on myspace, and we had nothing in common. We both had our crazy lives we were leading, and we both had no clue where any of it was headed. That brought us together, but could it hold us together? Well, no.. I realized pretty quickly that she wasn't really as smart as I wanted my girlfriend to be. I need someone to communicate with that will actually understand what I'm saying. That was my thought. "I need a girl I can learn from"

I don't know why I think I need that, but what is to unfold is far more significant than having a girl I could learn from.

So 3 years later, we're at schlitterbahn enjoying the day, meanwhile I'm contemplating my next moves. I'm unemployed, my relationship is dying, my bank account is getting thin, and the pressures creeping up. I've got a good idea that my head is in the right place with machines in mind, but there's something else there, too. My mind itself, what is it actually capable of? Well, I pass the word along to my girlfriend that my most recent plans are to abandon this way of life, and to seek something else. "I need a place where I can invent, and I can research."

This task has proven difficult due to the increase in terrible quality delivered by local colleges and those within my state. It would appear that to become a machinist, one must already be a machinist. Luckily I am, and I only seek a certification, but I refuse to pay for a product that does not live up to its claim. That's another issue, though..

The day after schlitterbahn, my girlfriend whom I've just told may be back on the single market here shortly decides to come over on a whim. FINALLY, we've both broken ourselves down enough to get past the masks we've thrown on to blend in with the rest of the country. What I discovered was that this woman thinks, feels, and reacts not only in the same way as I do, but for the same reasons I do. The way our thoughts develop and mature are identical. All of a sudden, this woman who has hidden herself from me for our entire relationship just became a new person. A person that is not new to me at all, because she is myself, and I am her. This isn't a sappy love story, this shit just happened. All the screaming and pissing and moaning we subjected ourselves to in an attempt to achieve what we did, finally paid off.

I relayed the specifics of this story to a buddy of mine, who suggested I read "Beyond Civilization" by Daniel Quinn.

Daniel Quinn, in this book, has described what I've seen very well. The similarities between civilizations around the world, the similarities between religions, the similarities between everything that ever was, and what is now. I believe these things are directly related to one another, and that the significance of my realization within my girlfriend's mind could also mean that in the very same way I could see the way she works, I might possibly be able to see how you work, why you work, what you're capable of, and what you'll do well in.

I believe, if this idea is expanded upon, it could possibly be used for an unspoken, unquestioned shift in cultural philosophy because each individual mind sees the same thing in their mind, because they, independently, will have created it. The very same vision.

I believe that it's possible that all of us here speak in the same mental language as one another, but our personal abilities with spoken and written language will limit our effectiveness at transporting this information from one person to another.

What is it that we all understand?

genuinegirly

Welcome to the board.

Do you plan to use your newfound knowledge to facilitate peace, or chit-chat? I'm curious where you're headed with this thought process and hope you'll stick around to share the developments with us.

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"Sometimes I have to remember that things are brought to me for a reason, either for my own lessons or for the benefit of others." Cynthetiq

"violence is no more or less real than non-violence." roachboy

WinchesterAA

Once I have a little more evidence of that which I speak I plan to educate everyone I can, so that there will be more people to assist me with my projects, because I'm not the only person alive that thinks about them.


To give a little more info, Daniel Quinn had this to say.. "When you see a ball roll off of a table, you should think, "Gravity is at work here."

Much the same as this, when you're brainstorming, or you've had an idea come into your head that that's very clear, and very powerful. Sometimes might make you laugh, might make you tremble, who knows...

but when ever you think of something, there's something happening that you might not notice because, like gravity, when it works you can't really tell. All you see is the ball falling to the dirt, or the idea coming into your head, but there are complex mechanics behind it, atleast for me, and most recently my girlfriend.

Her ideas and interests are in quite different from my own. She enjoys pondering why the world doesn't accept her at all. She also enjoys designing houses with CAD software, and previously thought she had to pretend to be who she thought I (and others) wanted her to be. She didn't understand that when I said, "I want you to be yourself, because I can see when you're not, and it makes me sick."

but the same way I think about ANYTHING AT ALL, is the same way she does.

My theory is this -

All of everyones use of

Violence
Peace
Passivity
Aggression

all of their ideas which involve

attacking something
defending something
managing something
organizing something
writing something
building something
designing something

all of the ways a person
interprets something
expresses something
analyzes something
engineers something

all of ways a person communicates
through "love"
through "anger"
through "Indifference"
through "Vision"
through "disgust"

and all other ways everybody does anything, the way that happens, I believe, is part of the human body, it's something, and it can do a great many things we may not yet be familiar with.


For example - When I talk to someone close to me, that I've established a history with, when they express their visions, I don't hear their words. I see the way they created their vision, and I can replicate it in my own mind, and begin working on it.

When a good teacher teaches, this I also see.

However, when a "bad" teacher teaches, I see nothing at all. All I hear is words that clearly, this person does not generate in his own mind, and therefore it all becomes quite useless to me. How am I to learn when those that teach do not know?

Quite similarly, when interacting with the average American, all I see is silence in this individuals mind, and meaningless words spewing from his mouth.

I can change this, our schools can no longer be a place for a child to openly, freely, and without care or the slighest of restraint, pursue the common goal of his peers to

Become intoxicated
Have sex
Destroy what is necessary (Many forms, such as hearing and how loud music kills it, a brain cell and how drugs kill it, sight and how computer screens kill it, creativity and how teachers kill it, etc etc)

More on how teachers kill creativity, and how a kid will destroy creativity when he sees it.
My teachers hated me, because I didn't follow along in their classes. I instead dreamed up tools that would allow me to have more fun in any given situation, or I'd carefully analyze my strategy in a particular online game. I was always looked down upon by my teachers because they viewed me as "dumb" suggestions of special ed courses came about, and eventually that was pushed through, further nuking my "rating" as a human being , which is established by my peers and the "adults" just the same. On the other hand, personally I thought of myself as someone of a super hero compared to the rest of my classroom. I could do EVERYTHING they couldn't. I could build fires, I could make my own fireworks, I could dominate anyone in counter-strike that I wanted to, professional league players included. I could even program tools to make it impossible for me to die in these games. You think Perry Moore could do that at 13? No, he didn't even know how to restart his computer that his parents bought, paid for, and gave him. My parents did the same thing, kind of, but the computer was free because the owner broke it. I fixed it, and used it all the time. It was given to me as trash. I could also fight very well, I could shoot, it was not an uncommon concept to me at all that I can walk right out of my backdoor and get dinner for my entire family right now, with a little patience. Nobody else really saw it that way. Food came from the grocery store, I was insane, and that was all there was to it.

I can do plenty of useful things now, and I have, in my opinion, THE outlook for life for modern human beings everywhere. It's not one of anything at all, just one of mechanics. Anything is probable.


To give you a running thought I have..

The very core of human life is expressed in manufacturing. When you observe a mill, you'll notice lots of little nobs that will move your workspace in EXTREMELY small increments, so small you can barely notice it moved at all, but that's why you have a micrometer so you can still see it. You have controls to adjust the speed and direction in which the bit spins, the amount of torque behind it, the Z axis adjustments are equally as precise as the X and Y adjustments, and it's all just so perfect for what it does..

I'm fairly certain these controls came about in the same way that any other idea comes about. I believe it's a direct overlay of your mind onto your surroundings. You encounter a situation, and your response to that situation could be an icecream cone for a hot day when you don't want to have a bowl or a cup to keep track of when you're done, or a lathe.


This is how I design things anyway. I feel the idea, and then I make it real. Once it's real, I can change how it looks. All it ever was, or ever will be, is a concept.

The car for example.. What if your legs weren't made of rubber? Not necessarily to say if they weren't made of rubber, they'd have to be made of flesh.. but instead to say, they could be made of fire, water, wind, plastic, wood, dirt, or whatever. You can make anything move you, but why would you want to?

Various reasons.. Perhaps you're carrying something that ways 200 times as much as you do, and you don't really feel like growing to accomodate, why not build a truck?

"I need to move, fast, light, and for long periods of time" Motorcycle would make that pretty easy, although not incredibly comfortable at all times. Maybe you want a leisure car?


It's all come about the same way, I believe. I also believe there are varying degrees of your ability to use your mind for things other than survival instincts, and satiating them, and that unlocking the ability to learn anything would be a great thing for Americans, and people everywhere.

Not necessarily for peace or war, but for our evolution as people. I have dreams of living on another planet, and there is nothing in my mind that suggests it can't be done, unless people all of a sudden forgot that they, themselves, could do help me in that goal.

"Go to NASA for that" is what I'd hear..

I don't want to work for the government! No! I want to work for ME!

Manic_Skafe

That's one hell of a first post and a damned good follow up. It'll be nice to see you around - I'm intrigued.

Howdy.

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Jozrael

Welcome . I'm excited to see how you fit in here.

jshow14

That weren't allowed back in the day....