WinchesterAA

My last couple of days have been very realistic. Unnaturally realistic.

I'm 22, and I live in Houston, Texas. I've been with the same girl for 3 years now, and everything up until this point is best described as a miscommunication.

Now what I mean by that, is that for as long as I can remember I've had this notion that the people around me weren't seeing the same things I do. In some instances, my response was significant, because it was the only response that was something other than complete forfeiture. Or, in some cases, in spite of dramatic support of business as usual, I opted for a complete rebuild.

Why this involves a girl - I met her on myspace, and we had nothing in common. We both had our crazy lives we were leading, and we both had no clue where any of it was headed. That brought us together, but could it hold us together? Well, no.. I realized pretty quickly that she wasn't really as smart as I wanted my girlfriend to be. I need someone to communicate with that will actually understand what I'm saying. That was my thought. "I need a girl I can learn from"

I don't know why I think I need that, but what is to unfold is far more significant than having a girl I could learn from.

So 3 years later, we're at schlitterbahn enjoying the day, meanwhile I'm contemplating my next moves. I'm unemployed, my relationship is dying, my bank account is getting thin, and the pressures creeping up. I've got a good idea that my head is in the right place with machines in mind, but there's something else there, too. My mind itself, what is it actually capable of? Well, I pass the word along to my girlfriend that my most recent plans are to abandon this way of life, and to seek something else. "I need a place where I can invent, and I can research."

This task has proven difficult due to the increase in terrible quality delivered by local colleges and those within my state. It would appear that to become a machinist, one must already be a machinist. Luckily I am, and I only seek a certification, but I refuse to pay for a product that does not live up to its claim. That's another issue, though..

The day after schlitterbahn, my girlfriend whom I've just told may be back on the single market here shortly decides to come over on a whim. FINALLY, we've both broken ourselves down enough to get past the masks we've thrown on to blend in with the rest of the country. What I discovered was that this woman thinks, feels, and reacts not only in the same way as I do, but for the same reasons I do. The way our thoughts develop and mature are identical. All of a sudden, this woman who has hidden herself from me for our entire relationship just became a new person. A person that is not new to me at all, because she is myself, and I am her. This isn't a sappy love story, this shit just happened. All the screaming and pissing and moaning we subjected ourselves to in an attempt to achieve what we did, finally paid off.

I relayed the specifics of this story to a buddy of mine, who suggested I read "Beyond Civilization" by Daniel Quinn.

Daniel Quinn, in this book, has described what I've seen very well. The similarities between civilizations around the world, the similarities between religions, the similarities between everything that ever was, and what is now. I believe these things are directly related to one another, and that the significance of my realization within my girlfriend's mind could also mean that in the very same way I could see the way she works, I might possibly be able to see how you work, why you work, what you're capable of, and what you'll do well in.

I believe, if this idea is expanded upon, it could possibly be used for an unspoken, unquestioned shift in cultural philosophy because each individual mind sees the same thing in their mind, because they, independently, will have created it. The very same vision.

I believe that it's possible that all of us here speak in the same mental language as one another, but our personal abilities with spoken and written language will limit our effectiveness at transporting this information from one person to another.

What is it that we all understand?