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Originally posted by ustam67
2 months have gone by, i've lost 20 pounds due to
depression and i havent really been able to forgive
myself. i really feel like i love my
girlfriend more than anything in the world, and i dont
know how i could have ever done something so horrible.
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wow, you're being incredibly hard on yourself. my first reaction to your dilemma is, "gee, that doesn't sound so bad". ultimately i realized that yes, if you were posting pics of your nude gf, you should have had her permission/participation, however, if she is willing to have nude photos taken by you, she may have some exhibitionist tendencies that she's not fully embracing.
have you considered that perhaps it could be a mutual turn-on for the two of you to post her photos and peruse the responses together? it's interesting that you were interested in other men's reactions to her pics ... that's a whole other thread topic. but if you're focused on having this woman in your life, you need to level with her about what your activities are/were.
although you mentioned that she was upset at your initial admission, it's possible that she was reacting the way a girl is "supposed" to react to something like that. i suspect that beneath her "appropriate" reaction she may be a bit flattered that you thought enough of the photos to share them with the world ... regardless of who the respondants were. if she is in love with you, she will need to always be able to trust you. you owe her the truth; for better or worse, as they say.
as a gf with an SO who is open to alternative approaches to sex and intimacy, i believe in being open to pushing your boundaries. although there is a substatial risk involved, this may be an opportunity for greater intimacy between the two of you. good luck.