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Old 02-20-2004, 03:41 AM   #1 (permalink)
Zorvox
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Location: Sydney, Australia
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Well, I am once again.. victim of confusion!

Well, I guess everyone has suffered this and all that but.. yeah... every situation is different hey ! - but anyway, just want some advice on a few things.. or perhaps answers hehe.

Lets see... there is a girl, called "melony" (just for names sake), I havn't known her for long, but ever since I met her, I have practically spent alot of time with her, in the morning, at college and after college.

I like her, she is cool as.. she is cute, she's your mate - she speaks to you.. and around her, I feel really shy.. perhaps even nervous.., she is fun to be around and I enjoy spending time with her..

Hmm, how can I say this.. well, when we are together.. it sort of feels like we are together or something.. like, we will wait at the traffic lights to cross the road, and i'll be standing behind her.. she'll then lean back onto me - another e.g. we were in a shop by ourselves and she grabbed my arms and put them around her stomache..

Now don't get me wrong, having a girl that you like do that, does bring a bit of ease to the mind when you are thinking about the person and what to do say / next?... especially when you are fond of them..

I don't know her that well.. but I feel asif I know a lot about her, who she is, her past and what she's about.. but then again, I hardly know anything.

I have a few concerns.. firstly, she seems to have alot of "ex boyfriends" and by alot.. i mean well, heh alot.. I don't know how many exactly of course, but alot of people she introduced me to - they went out with her.

She was with a guy I know for a year.. which gives me the impression that she can hold onto a relationship.. or something like that.

A few times, when she's around her friends she speaks .. a little weird? i.e. "when I go out, I want a smoke, a good drink.. and a good root".. I mean fair enough, but it just doesn't sound right when she says it, or how she says it.. like today she said to me "I won't shit you, I like sex and when I want it.. I want it, it should be spontaneous for both sides" or something like that.

I was in a relationship not too long ago.. and have approached this one, well... a little more educated? I feel like i'm on the defence or something ?? I am saying things I usually wouldn,t, and I am really shy around her.. and sort of find it a little hard to be myself.. I think it's just because I like her.. and I dunno where we stand.

Like yesturday and today at college, before she went to her classes, I got a nice little kiss on the lips and a goodbye.. blah blah, when she says gbye to some of her male friends, she kisses them on the cheek... which makes me feel special :P.. I can feel something there, but I don't know what's going on.. I feel like it's only from me, but then when I think of what has happend, I think *nah, she wouldn't do that if she didn't*

We went to the beach today by ourselves and 30 minutes passe din 30 seconds.. the time just flew, we just sat down and spoke for a little bit about who we have been with, what happend who they were and what we want.. although I didn't get my turn.

She had some good points and all that..

I know who I am, and what I want..

I want a girl, that I can just laze around with on the couch and watch TV, a girl that I can go to sleep next to, wake up next to, a girl I can take out, a girl that I can be with my mates around, have fun with, party with.. all that stuff.

But I don't want a full on thing, take things slow..

I don't know why.. I really like this girl, I think she is awesome.. she is the type of girl that I imagine could be my girlfriend, but my best friend too.. and I am sort of scared whether to get involved, because I feel so unsure about what will happen.. I don't want to just be another name on the list...

I want something meaningful and lasting..

Like today, I went to HER bus stop, to get on the bus with her and her friend, so I left earlier and walked to her stop.. we got on the bus went to school etc, she waited around for 3 hours for me until I finished.. then we went back down towards our places, she changed.. (infront of me), well she was completely topless at one stage.. she didn't say look away (i don't think), but she turned around.. so she wasn't facing me... I won't deny it.. I was looking .

Then we came up to my place, I introduced her to the people and then my friend (her friend too) came and picked her up and took her to a party.., I didn't go.. wasn't invited even.. I dunno, I am sort of missing her lol..

Now I feel like she will be at the party, living it up, letting things loose and probably getting laid or what not.. I dunno, I feel like I wanna explain things, but will feel like an idiot if there's nothing there.

I don't love her or anything, but I am certainly interested in her as a person, and I would love to take her out, do things with her.. spoil her even.. I wanna move things along.. not now, but I sort of want a way to suggest, that I am interested in something with her, but not to rush into it, be friends -- not bf/gf, just friends.. who flirt, kiss whatever.. but like take an oath not to do anything with anyone else????

We will be talking to one another, and she'll move in all close to me, rub her nose against mine and stuff, with my ex.. I would like wrap my arms around her, kiss her.. and just be myself, now I just stand there, smile and laugh and stuff... It's weird.. I am so lost!

So I dunno what the go is, or what's going to happen, or even.. what to do.. she lives about a 5 minute walk away from me tomorrow.. I would love to see her, but I feel like if I went down there.. it would be a bit full on.. after spending hte last 3 days straight with her or what?

I feel like I am not reading the signals??? if there are any??? like all I wanna do is be all over her and stuff.. but it seems completely wrong when I want to do it, so I don't.

Help?!?!

Heh, I feel so weird

I just don't wanna fuck myself up.. or screw shit up.. I want this girl, she is AWESOME FUN to be with, she makes me laugh and well, makes me really shy :P - but she is cool... and everything.. feels so..... um.. well I dunno.

I want to explain things, but can't word it correctly.. I am scared

Cheers

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