lurkette, Im not doing anything expecting something in return, the little things I do I do them because I love them, however Im beginning to notice that she's only interested when she needs something. This can be as simple as, if she needs a hug, she looks for me, or if she needs a kiss, or sex, she looks for me. If she needs a ride somewhere, she looks for me or now with her moving about 2 1/2 hours away, she's looked for me because she knows she doesnt even has to ask for something, if she needs it, I'll get it for her.
As far as it being my fault, its my fault for caring but thats just who I am. If someone/something needs help and I can provide it I'm always there. Its not like I do it to show her I love her, Im always there for my friends, family and pretty much anyone I care about, including the dogs and cats at the pound
I feel so much love for her and thought the same was coming my way that I honestly feel devastated by all this. Its funny how love can mess with our heads so much but I just truly cannot see beyond her at this point. I hope I'm wrong I hope I'm wrong I hope I'm wrong. This is the one time in my life I hope I am dead wrong.