Hi Supple Cow,
sorry to hear that girl!
I wish you a lot of support in this difficult time... I guess everyone reacts different every time to a situation like that. If you're not crying now, that doesn't mean that that relation meant less to you than the previous one, maybe you'll have a good "cry-out" later, or maybe not at all...
I remember when I broke up with my previous boyfriend; well, he broke up with me... I expected I would be crying all day long, the problem was, that I had invited a whole bunch of friends to have a barbeque that night at my place... so, I held up my tears, thinking I would just drink myself lazarus, and then cry in my bed, when they were all gone... I didn't tell my friends anything, because if I would have told them, I would definitely broken up in tears and the whole night would have been ruined... when they asked me why he didn't came, or where he was, I quickly answered that he had to do too much work and then changed the subject immediately... I drank a lot that night, a lot more than everyone there present, so I was drunk as hell when everybody left... I went up to my room, finding all the stuff reminding me about him: pictures, tshirts, cd's etcetera... but i was too drunk to care at that moment, so i slept for a day and a half!
When i woke up, i immediately remembered what had happened, and i thought i'd probably be crying for the rest of the week... but that didn't happen... I felt sad, i felt bad, but i didn't cry! Even when I told my friends, it was as if i had lost all emotions... something like that...
I avoided him for a few months, and then finally I cracked down, tears rolled over my face, without any specific, clear reason... I wrote down everything i felt, and thought about him and the whole relation and the break-up, and sent him the letter..; After that, i think i felt better...
Sorry to pore this whole miserable story on you! not sure if this can make you feel better... it's just an illustration on how everyone will react in its own way on every event... you cannot force emotions, you have to endure them...
Good luck to you!!!!
