qne question: were you drunk or high when the encounters took place? While a buzz tends to intensify feelings and sensations, it also intensifies anxiety about the 'first time'.
I was where you were. In a small handful of previous encounters,
i could not come. each attempt that failed only magnified the problem.
one night, a young lady told me she wanted to have sex w/ me, and led me to her bedroom. (Note: this was the first, and up to this point, the only time that a girl has told me that she wanted to have sex w/ me, I'm hoping that someone will tell me those magic words again)
After a little oral on both our parts, and the requisite condom
she climbed on top, felt a little uncomfortable for me (would love to try the cowgirl again at some point), switched to
missionary, all thru this my mind is racing saying things like " i can't believe that this girl i wanted to have sex with, wanted to have sex w/ me, that i'm actually having sex w/ her", and those 'failed' previous attempts started to fark w/ my mind, and sure enough i went semi-flacid, enough that the condom fell off.
We stopped, searched for a few minutes, she finally said, "fark it, go natural" so back in i went (missionary) with my semi-flacid cock bareback,
regained hardness, started paying attention to the sensations of my member going in and out against those 'sugar walls', we flipped and did some 'doggy style' for a couple of minutes, then a minute or two of some titty fuck, then back to missionary, and i (and my unit) could actually feel that 'velvet grip' of her vaginal walls with each i/o thrust (one of the best sensations on earth
imho), was gaining confidence w/ each thrust, enough that i decided to get "playful", pulling almost all the way out, then back in full. About two minutes into this 'play' she decided that was enough of that and locked her legs around my ass, then it really got serious/intense, to the point
when i was verbalising "oh my god, OH MY GOD I CAN DO THIS", focusing on the sweet friction and a couple of minutes later saying "OH MY GOD, I'M GONNA CUM!!!" She unhooked her legs from around my ass and I pulled out, spewing my come on her belly.
So, my friend there is hope for you, hell, theres hope for me too
Be grateful that she want's to be there w/ you