To tell you the truth, i am going through the exact same stage right now. Just broke up wid a grl i've luved for the longest and deepest time of my life, and it's pretty hard to let go, i grant you that. I go through swings, in which i tell her that she needs to change her attitude and all that, but now in retrospect, it may be that i just wanted to be able to exert a little bit of control over her. It takes awhile to get over a girl that you've luved for so long, but when you do, it's quite interesting. You learn many things from breaking up. You learn to depend on urself, to kno how to pursue happiness by urself, how to live by urself, and finally, when u get all that, how to find confidence in urself. Only when you are able to b confident in urself again, will you be able to step out into the world again, but this time, in a much better light than before. Nothing else to say but to hang in there. Its good to take it day by day, evaluate what u did after every day, if you were able to let go a little more, or if not. To make it even more complicated, some girls (like the one im dealing with right now, and from the sounds of it, you too), like to play with guys' emotions, test them once in awhile, see if we men still care about them. Just ignore what they say, what they do, for a period of time. Its painful, but it also allows u to bounce back the fastest
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