*Wishes she were near DC right now*
Big hugs to you my friend.
That lonely feeling is a messed up feeling. She's out there, and it isn't when you "figure it out" but when time figures it in. And yes, that can feel like an eternity.
Being alone is never easy. But I found out the hard way that being with someone and still being lonely is worse. Never settle my friend and you will prevail.
