Jaron

SVT01Cobra,

I must admit that until a few months into this relationship I thought the same. It wasn't that I was particularly jaded about the concept itself, it was just that the concept of a higher emotion like "love" didn't make any sense. And hey, I'll be the first to admit that "love" still doesn't make any sense to me, and probably shouldn't make any sense to anyone, but after this experience and during this experience (even if it doesn't last) I know that I won't be able to deny the existance of love to anyone ever again.

I don't particularly feel sorry for you or anything like that for your point of view, nor do I particularly hope that you'll have a mind blowing experience like I have that will change your mind. It's really up to you, whether you accept it or not if something DOES happen to you, and for that, I sincerely hope that you do.

sillygirl,

I don't deserve her by any means, but thank you. I'm just glad that I've got her, now that I do, and that she's been willing to (and glad to) make it past the stupid mistakes that I've made with her and keep the relationship good, open, honest, intimate, and generally amazingly healthy. Basically, I'm just glad that she chose to stay with me no matter how much of an asshole I was to her, not telling her things that'd been happening and being an asshole about it when I did.

If I deserve this, then... well, no. Fuck that.

I'm listening to Ben Folds' "The Luckiest," and I'd have to say, I'm exactly that. Not deserving. Just amazingly lucky.

(The song makes me think of her. We listen to it, and sometimes I really can't help crying a little. I can NEVER stop from smiling while listening to it.)