LOL i love life. Lemme tell you. Lemme recap the past few weeks for everyone. Going with this girl for a while, she decides to goto school up north about 8 hours away and was talkin like she wanted to break up. So I did. Well that wasn't what she wanted so I pulled some stuff to get her back and thought I did( read the "I'm an idiot post")...I mean we went back to our normal ways. Then she was giving me tips on how to get a girl that "is 800x better than her". I was like wtf?! so i posted about that (**** buddies) and tried to figure stuff out. Well I didn't. So i called her last night and we was talking and said she wanted to read me something she wrote....(she's a amazing writer) it was a poem.... she talked about everything she told me(the way i touched her, the way she still wanted me to see her, the way she dreams of me sleeping in the same bed with her....just to sleep( that is VERY relaxing.)....etc, etc. Then she says the problem is that it wasn't about me. That sucked....silence....able to hear any shard of hope shatter away. ANYWAY, after doing some driving around being upset and all, I came home and talked to my ex-gf, who is now pretty much my best friend. She just told me to sit back and let her realize what she is missing out on. So i was like ok. I got online and my ex(the one that this is all about) was online so I was bullshittin with her, then outta the blue she was like I lied about all the stuff on the phone.....then wouldn't explain what she meant cuz she didn't know. SO i was like yea whatever, just call me when you do figure it out. and that is the end of my story......boring I know. It's funny, I thought I would be in a shittier mood, but I'm not. So maybe it was a good thing.
