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This is going to sound so generic. You want to get out of the emotional chaos. That is a good thing as it sounds like there is so much happening that it would be really difficult to find a clear direction. I, too, went through the crush stage at many stages when I was in my late teens through my mid-20s. I was confusing physical attraction with emotional intimacy (which is quite a different thing). Being physical with someone tends to cloud the boundaries between the physical and emotional (at least for awhile). Things got so much clearer once I began to figure out who I was and why I did certain things (issues from my childhood). It didn't really become crystal clear until I sought counseling to help steady me out emotionally a bit. Now I understand why I do certain things. This made my life so much simpler. I both accept myself and like myself now. Yes, I still get little crushes, but I completely understand why now and don't let it interfere with my very strong emotional/physical attachment to my wife. BTW, I do admire the way you have chosen to explore your bisexual side as well as emotional attachments to several people (which I think is perfectly viable although a tad risky).
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