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Originally posted by empu
I believe you have a deep need for emotional chaos. I believe you unintentionally seek it out and help to create it around you. I suspect you have some history of being on the wrong end of physical or mental abuse, and that this history is at least in part the root of this behavior.
I say this without judgment. It is up to you to decide to what extent you believe this to be true, and if so, to what extent you wish to do anything about it. Consider it food for thought.
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I agree with this post actually. You say you have "crush problems" extremely often. To me, this says that either 1) you, on a sub-conscious level, attract chaos into relationships - something that could be caused by physical, sexual, or mental abuse of some sort - or 2) you have a fear of committment and, thus, on a sub-conscious level, sabotage your relationships.
I don't mean this as a judgment of you at all - in fact it's very possible I could be completely off-base considering I only know of one particular situation of yours and am not a psychologist - but it's definitely something to consider.
It's one thing to be polyamorous and open to threesomes, etc, but it sounds to me like it runs deeper than that.