carebear

I fuck him because I am mad
Outside i'm loving but inside it's bad
Wearing a smile but inside I'm boiling
Basking in how I am secretly spoiling
What should be a beautiful act.

I fuck him because I can hate him
And at the same time pretend to elate him
He'll never know that I always see red
And that sometimes I see myself smashing his head
Into the wallpapered wall.

I fuck him because I am losing
Even in sex there's no way of choosing
I cannot say no now
I'm angry but fear now
The man that I used to love.

At least I can move him
And ram him and lure him
And smack him and stir him
Around on my body

I fuck him because of quick power
No control after, I just take a shower
I try to avoid him the rest of the night
I keep my feet tucked to my belly so tight
I hate being angry in bed.

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go cubs!