jay-g

It sounds like you are having signs of depression. Thats not good because depression makes you waste time off of the short life we already have without things like that. I was depressed for like a year and I can never get that time back. I mean I was depressed but not that bad where I wanted to end my own life. My motivation was, since I am gonna be here for awhile, I might as well make something of myself during my time here. When its all said and done, I dont want to be a loser in the game of life. I want to be the winner and be able to look back at my accomplishments and be proud. In a sense, either you are strong or weak. I know for me I am strong mentally and dont want to be in the "weak" category. I mean who wants to be the one on the floor bleeding. Meanwhile there are people who are happy and enjoying life. It sounds like you do care about making something of yourself and your life. I dont think moping around, being lazy and anti-social is gonna get you where you want to be. Now just think to yourself, what do you want ouf of life and what is it gonna take to get where you want to be. Work hard, keep your head up, stay happy and everything will work out just fine.