Okay, here's an update.
She went and got her license renewed to dance (it has to be done each year) today. She left for work and will be meeting her friend at this club on the west end of the city.
Right now, Im not sure how Im feeling, but Im alone at home and Ive been going through Heineken's like an idiot. Im sure I'll call myself an idiot in the morning...
Anyway, being alone and slightly sloshed is not good so I think I might step out for a walk. It is nice and cool outside and I think the air might help me out.
To all the folks who have posted with some of the best advice I have ever seen on a board, thank you. Your candor and support is very much appreciated.
I think its time to think more about me now and decide what I should do. In hindsite, this is all very silly. I recall speaking with a number of people telling me horror stories about dating, living or marrying strippers.
Im not saying that my situation is similar since I consider it quite unique, but man, this is hard. I never thought Id ever feel like this, but hey, live and learn...