If you were really "in love" with this girl and she was the right one and you should get married, etc. then you wouldn't have been expressing all of those problems and doubts. You have feelings for the girl, granted - I'm not trying to make light or reduce these nice feelings - but it isn't the "get married" kind of true love. It is a hot girl, great sex and more than a little infatuation. It doesn't sound like this relationship is going to last forever but so what? Have fun - be honest - let it go for what it is and after it all breaks apart then you will be sad for a while, have other relationships and learn, mature and live and love some more later. Have fun now and don't get so hung up with having the "perfect" relationship. Maybe you will have 5 more before you find mrs. right. If it is right then, by definition you don't have those doubts and problems. It is ok to be in a relationship that won't last forever or result in marriage. When it is right you will know it.
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