vveronica

I guess I need to get imput from guys and girls as to if I'm crazy or just something.

When I was growing up in a very disfunctional home. I think By the time I was 12 my father was on his 3rd wife. My mother having been gone from the age of 5. I have a half brother was the one who basically raised me. He is 16 years older and when I would get in trouble he was the one who was there. Even when he was out of town with the team, if I needed him, he was there. Once he even missed a game and was fined and never said a word he just came to my rescue. When things got really bad at home i moved in with him at 14.

Now I'm 23 and we are still close. I'm 4'11" and am 90 pounds like my mom and he is 6'4 and around 300# like my father, so not much outwardly similiar genetics. I find myself attracted to older big men. I figure it is just me trying to find a guy like him.
But, see now I just moved 600 miles away and find myself fantasizing about him. He's single and so am I and I know there is this huge taboo on this. I just cant get him out of my mind.

Am I crazy?

Your input would be appreciated....