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I am going to school next year and thats something that makes me feel so bad. I thought I should have a fun summer before I go to college but, I have'nt done shit. I'm living at home while I go to school but, I still thought that this summer was going to be fun. Man, I was just starting to feel really down( i drank a little tonight) and I remembered how weed makes me feel so much better. I thought to myself that I should buy some weed and smoke it. But, now I realized thats how I got into this situation. Fuck, I dont know what to do. I wish there was some source of enjoyment in my life. But, theres nothing. I dont know how I can live on being so alone. I want to change but, drugs(weed) have a hold of me and I just dont know how to talk to girls. So, I guess i'm fucked and I might as well just score some weed after work tommorow. Cause If i dont I will just have these same feelings and nothing to make me feel better. I wish there was some way I could go back and change my life. I cant belive I'm at the point where I'm so alone and so unhappy.
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