If you can hack it, my suggestion would be go to college. It doesn't have to be a good college (but leaving home is best). Borrow as much money as you have to and get out of dodge.
At the least back off on the girl front. It will happen at some point, and you will be amazed at all the stupid stuff before hand to try to attract women. Then, most likely, that relationship will fall apart horribly. If you can make it through that rough patch, then you will be okay, and understand what you want in a women better and be in a better position to end up with the one you want.
Above all else, remember that you are very young, and that you have many opportunities ahead of you that you might not be able to imagine right now. I was always at most two steps away from sucidaluntil about my 22nd birthday, and the biggest step in clearing things up was realizing that *I* was the one responsible for my happiness, and that a woman would compliment my life, not be my life.
hope this helps, and if you are a troll, fuck you in your stupid fucking ass
