Rodney

What we need to talk about here is the difference between guilt and shame. Guilt comes from inside; it's remorse for something you did. You don't have that. Shame comes from outside; it comes from the contempt and shock of those around you, in response to something you did.

Because you think a lot of your parents, their low opinion on what you did shames you. It's very natural to feel shame when somebody you care about condemns something you've done. Shame is a social control; and like many good controls, it's supposed to hurt.

So yeah, I think it's natural to feel that way. What a mature guy might do now is go talk things out with the parents and maybe do some self-examination. That may be you, or it may not be. Whatever. It's your move; and remember, not moving is a move.