-Anders

Am i weird?

Just some minutes ago after taking a walk with the dog i came home and sat in the garden, more specificly at the fish-pond.

I am 19 Years old, had my birthday the 2nd of june. I have been in a 'relationship' lately with an amazing girl
(ofcourse, they all are – otherwise we wouldnt be interested in them would we? Take a look at the link in my signature for more information on that)
And that have kind of changed my mind about some very fundamental things.

Sitting in the garden i thought to my self:

'This is nice, so quiet and still. I wish i could have my own garden like this, my own children and my own house.
My own wife and my own life, having a nice quiet life in the country, or better: In a small country town as the one i live in now.

I find the thought of this extremely appealing to me, even though i think it shouldnt.
I see a lot of people my age go to parties almost constantly, getting drunk sleeping with 10 different people each weekend.
I mean, sure that's what i am supposed to do aswell right? But i just dont feel that way, i love to sit at home and relax, listen to soothing music and talk, watch tv – or as now, sit in the garden and think.

I guess i should go to some parties once in a while, i mean – they are fun and all that, there's just things i'd rather do instead.

I think to my self, what have gone wrong with me?
Why do i want to settle at this early age?
Or is it not me, but everybody else that's wrong? Most likely not, as wrong and right is controlled by society, not me.

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