Well basically, this has to do with my ex girlfriend. We went out for a year, it seems like it was longer then that and so far we've been broken up for about a month. We're on a bestfriend basis but I just have no idea what to do about things. As you have probably already guessed I'm still in love with her, and she says that a part of her will always love me too. I know a lot of people have already posted something basically with the same problem but I just feel so emotionally unstable, for some reason even more so then other people with the same problem. Things are just changing and everything feels so wierd right now, I was deciding whether or not to post this but I finally decided too as I didn't know where else to turn as I had turned to everyone else I knew (including her). I'm starting to think something is seriously wrong with me
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I really want to get back with her but I don't know whether I should or not or if she would even want too. I've discussed this with her before and she told me that she didn't know what would happen in the future, she says that "we never know and my feelings might change and we could get back together". She's bi and had gone out on a blind date, I don't know if she liked the girl or not she went out with but that kind of scares me that she might lean all the way into the direction of not wanting a guy at all. I just don't know what to do.
I know I'm jumping around a bit but this past month I've basically been freaking out. If you knew me you would understand things, I'm the kind of guy that only shows good emotions and is basically never angry, but all these negative emotions have just bottled up and lately I've felt like I just want to go on a rampage or something. When I was with her her and I never got into a fight, and I never really wanted too either, but lately sometimes it just feels like this little match inside my gasoline filled head wants to go off and I want to start trouble. I really need some advice from anyone.
I sometimes go through stages of complete "enlightenment" where I feel good about everything, and then I go through periods where I wish I was just completely mindless and stupid. If you have any sympathetic advice (or even not) just please give it to me, I need some kind of help. I really don't know whether I want to get over her, or find someone else, I've never loved someone as much as I love her.
And I really wish I understood women....
