My older brother by four years was killed in a car accident just before his 21st birthday. That was in March of this year. I still havn't gotten over it (and I never will), but what helps the most is just remembering all the fun I had with him. I was always with him, so I also lost one of my best friends. We had gone on a cruise together right before his death, so we were closer than ever. I actually was with him that last night. Anyway, like I was saying, just remember all the good times. The hurt never leaves, and you'll always remember them, but just try to think of them doing the stuff they loved to do. Try thinking about their smile when they were having fun (for instance, if think about your brother skateboarding). I don't know if that will help you, but I know I can't help but smile (sometimes sadly, but more happy times than not) when I think of my older brother.
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