I would echo the sentiments of getting some counseling. It sounds like there's something bubbling away under the surface there that isn't going to go away until you find out what it is and find some way to deal with it, or at least accept that it's there.
But I think at the moment if you're just not comfortable hooking up with people, then simply don't until your ready. There's no point agitating your anxiety while you're not fully aware of what is causing it.
I you figure it all out though Poetry, you seem pretty switched on :-)
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