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Haha, I knew i had a good feeling about this place. Thanks for your response telekinetic, I appreciate your sincerity. One thing stood out to me most with your reply. Titillation? Good word but sick enjoyment is probably a better description. I don't know why. Very perceptive of you though! I think I need to properly admit this fact to myself properly in order to forget and move on.
I know I'm completely in the wrong. I know. But why the hell am I so curious? Why would I want to do it to myself and to her?
I appreciate the suggestion, but I don't think I'll say anything to her. I realise this is deceitful but I don't see what either of us would stand to gain. I'm going to have to get over this myself, in my own time. Any suggestions on how to do this? I have a very addictive personality and find it very difficult to break habits. I lack willpower and self esteem most of the time, but that is an issue for another day.
You've certainly given me food for thought, I'll sleep on it and post again tomorrow. Thanks again for not being dismissive.
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