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I'm probably a bit different from most myself. When I was young (middle school) my cousin closest in age to me died at 8 yrs old from Lukemia, my Grandfater (the person I was closest to) died from brain cancer, my Stepmom (the person who understood me best) was killed by my dad. (Don't say you're sorry to hear it, doesn't really matter anymore, it was a long time ago.) My other Grandpa died, not that I knew him, 2 great grandmothers, and I may be forgetting someone.
Point being, in 2 to 3 years I lost all these people who meant the world to me back to back. After that I pretty much just blanked out my sixth grade year. First day of seventh grade I couldn't even remember who my friends were from the year before. But my friends re-introduced themselves to me, and life goes on.
By highschool I had pretty much iced over and I've stayed that way till now and I'm currently 29.
Death to me now is just a part of life. My emotions don't really register. I get happy, angry, and nervous like everyone else. But love and sadness don't really click in my head like they do for most people.
So I guess how I deal with death now is that to me yeah it sucks, but everyone has to die at some point. I'm sad to see them go, but you'd be hard pressed to see me shed a tear over anyone no matter who they are. I don't think I'm avoiding, or bottling up. It just emotionally doesn't register to me anymore.
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