a little more than a year ago my best friend died next to me when he flipped his car. i think everyone feels things their own way, but that said, nothings ever the same after you lose someone that close.
to me i imagine it like having lost a couple fingers... you can do almost everything you used to and there's good days and bad days, but even on the good days it's never the same as when you had your whole hand.
as for talking things out, take stock of how you usually deal with stresses. personally, i work everything out internally and am mortified when i have to "talk out" that kind of stuff, but i'm happy to do it to help other people... i just wouldn't do it for me. besides that, do whatever you do to connect to the rest of life and the world.... take walks on the beach, meditate, pray etc. eventually you can integrate it all into your life enough to enjoy the good days again.
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-my phobia drowned while i was gettin down.
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