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Old 04-06-2011, 12:53 PM   #6 (permalink)
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Originally Posted by amonkie View Post
I had a similiar kind of secret except there was not question whether I was involved... I was directly responsible.

I could count on 1 hand the number of people who knew that fact, and I had carried that for 10 years.

It took truly forgiving myself to let it go. I had some qualified folks to talk to and that is what helped me. Leaving that in your past is hard but its the only way to get your life back. You won't realize how much it has held you back until you do. At least... that was the case for me.
^ that.

I carried a bunch of shit for 20 years. No one died from mine, but I still carried it with me. It still was something that led me down a path of daily drug use and very heavy drinking.

I excelled even with the addictions, I can't imagine how much further I would be if I didn't have those things weighing me down for 20 years.

But forgive yourself.
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