Sorry for your loss bro
I lost my younger brother to AIDS and he was the best person in the world. I talk with my brother everday and keep him in my prayers. The hardest thing for me is not remembering the last time we were together wether or not I hugged him, what I mean is I can remember everything else about our last moments together our conversation......everything but our hug goodbye. Sometimes I will dwell on it....like now and it fucking KILLS ME INSIDE. So I think of how happy a person he was knowing for ten years he was going to die and not once crying or saying poor me and the crazy shit we used to do. When I think of him as being with me everthing is ok in my world and he IS STILL my little brother whom is always there in in my heart.
It will be ok and know he is never really gone as long as he is in your thoughts and heart.
God Bless