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ChickenMuffin · 03-29-2011, 02:50 PM

7 month relationship and it was my first. I have learned a lot and would like to share my life experience.

It started off great, I had cherished her with everything I had to give and share. She is the person who is very important and of the same time, worth every second of my life to spend with. But communication was something we lacked in as in, we would talk about the problems we've had yet nothing changes because it would be the same problem.

This problem was caused because of my insecurities with her. She is the perv type and who is willing to try sexual activities such as a threesome. I had once asked her about that question and she said she would try it. I was disappointed inside because I thought she would love me and only me and not share with anyone else. She was willingly to try anal with me to her extinct and I love it, it turns me on.

But I get jealous a lot sometimes when she is either talking to another guy friend or just any actions she does with a guy friend always had me thinking that she's flirting, being as a pervert she is. She said I had put her on a pedestal and that she further played on her insecurities. I told her that everything I did was for the princess and after we've talked about it, I told her that everything I do is for the princess and I.

But the problem still persisted within me when she's just doing something fishy that I notice and I think that she's hiding something behind it. Why do I think she's hiding? She has hidden things from me before such that she had a cut in her vagina and she told me days after. I got upset because that's a health risking factor and that it could have been worse. Luckily when I found out, we went to the doctors to have it checked up on and it was nothing serious, in fact, it was normal.

There was a lot of problems that needed to be fix and details of course, I want to fix my problems and she unwilling to give me another chance only because she breaks down terribly and doesn't want to again. I want to do whatever it takes to try and change myself for the better but it's been turning my will down because she has given up on it and she wants me to move on as well. The last time we had talked, she told me she still loves me yet she wants us to move on. So upon that, I took chances and wanted to make up for her, made origami flowers and tried to seek for her but I made it worse. Now, she told me I can text/call her but not talk about getting back into the relationship.

This is really keeping me down from chasing her as I really want to. I want to let her know my patience is uncrackable and my love for her is so true that I want to change. I want to change myself FOR myself, this is who I am. Should I keep talking to her? We're in a middle of crisis since we have exams and assignments in few weeks. I'm scared that I give her too much space and not call/text her anymore, that she'll completely move on which I don't want.

She still has few of my clothes and a bracelet I bought for her, as well a DSi XL. I don't know if she still wears or plays the DS but I'm not going to ask for them back unless she wants to give them back to me. I as well own a jacket of hers and that's about it.

I don't want my will to be broken down, I need her and this relationship. If she tells me that she will get back into the relationship but to compromise/fix ourselves. I will completely go bonkers and turn super saiyen. I will completely change AT ALL COSTS. I will add more to my story but I will have to go for now.

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Should I leave her alone for now? Is IT bad for me to keep persisting this relationship? as it's hard for her to focus on school so she needs to move on.

03-29-2011, 02:50 PM	#1 (permalink)
ChickenMuffin Tilted	Broke up with girlfriend 7 month relationship and it was my first. I have learned a lot and would like to share my life experience. It started off great, I had cherished her with everything I had to give and share. She is the person who is very important and of the same time, worth every second of my life to spend with. But communication was something we lacked in as in, we would talk about the problems we've had yet nothing changes because it would be the same problem. This problem was caused because of my insecurities with her. She is the perv type and who is willing to try sexual activities such as a threesome. I had once asked her about that question and she said she would try it. I was disappointed inside because I thought she would love me and only me and not share with anyone else. She was willingly to try anal with me to her extinct and I love it, it turns me on. But I get jealous a lot sometimes when she is either talking to another guy friend or just any actions she does with a guy friend always had me thinking that she's flirting, being as a pervert she is. She said I had put her on a pedestal and that she further played on her insecurities. I told her that everything I did was for the princess and after we've talked about it, I told her that everything I do is for the princess and I. But the problem still persisted within me when she's just doing something fishy that I notice and I think that she's hiding something behind it. Why do I think she's hiding? She has hidden things from me before such that she had a cut in her vagina and she told me days after. I got upset because that's a health risking factor and that it could have been worse. Luckily when I found out, we went to the doctors to have it checked up on and it was nothing serious, in fact, it was normal. There was a lot of problems that needed to be fix and details of course, I want to fix my problems and she unwilling to give me another chance only because she breaks down terribly and doesn't want to again. I want to do whatever it takes to try and change myself for the better but it's been turning my will down because she has given up on it and she wants me to move on as well. The last time we had talked, she told me she still loves me yet she wants us to move on. So upon that, I took chances and wanted to make up for her, made origami flowers and tried to seek for her but I made it worse. Now, she told me I can text/call her but not talk about getting back into the relationship. This is really keeping me down from chasing her as I really want to. I want to let her know my patience is uncrackable and my love for her is so true that I want to change. I want to change myself FOR myself, this is who I am. Should I keep talking to her? We're in a middle of crisis since we have exams and assignments in few weeks. I'm scared that I give her too much space and not call/text her anymore, that she'll completely move on which I don't want. She still has few of my clothes and a bracelet I bought for her, as well a DSi XL. I don't know if she still wears or plays the DS but I'm not going to ask for them back unless she wants to give them back to me. I as well own a jacket of hers and that's about it. I don't want my will to be broken down, I need her and this relationship. If she tells me that she will get back into the relationship but to compromise/fix ourselves. I will completely go bonkers and turn super saiyen. I will completely change AT ALL COSTS. I will add more to my story but I will have to go for now. ---------- Post added at 02:50 PM ---------- Previous post was at 02:49 PM ---------- Should I leave her alone for now? Is IT bad for me to keep persisting this relationship? as it's hard for her to focus on school so she needs to move on.