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another obsession
Allright, there is a girl I work with. She is technically at the same level as me although she has worked at this company ten years and I have been there one year (her company bought mine and my employment got transfered)
She is ridiculously hard working (she gets in at 6 am most days and leaves after 6PM, works most Saturday's...) but she is in a trap of getting down on herself and thinking she has to work harder and harder that she doesnt seem to be able to get out of. On one side she is caring and likeable, on the other hand she can be quite high handed and harsh with people. I like her a lot personally but find her infuriating at work sometimes. She is intelligent but wastes her time doing trying to change the company dress code and things like that. She also has very low self esteem and constantly beats herself up any time anything she is involved with doesnt go perfect.
If the point of this post isnt already clear, in the last three days twice I had dreams that she was my girlfriend (not sex dreams, but ordinary dreams about day to day life). Ive already been through a relationship with someone I worked with that didnt work out. Not that I think or want to imply she feels the same way cos its doubtful (she's a very nice looking girl a year older than me, I weigh 20 stones and am about half a hooligan)
My question is, how do you stop yourself liking someone when you know it isnt right and you know the circumstances are wrong?
I dont even know whey I bother posting this anonymously because it isnt like any regular member cant tell me from my poor use of English and fucked up life.
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