Alrighty. I've made my intro as well as some initial posts - I'm broken in. So now I will post one of the main reasons I decided to find a new forum. I need feedback here. And yes, I'm new and yes, this is personal. But I love the anonymity forums always provide as opposed to exposing my innermost secrets to friends.
For over 2 years, I've been on the following for bipolar disorder:
- Depakote
- Celexa
- Xanax
- Risperdal
- Lithium
Everything seemed to be working great. Then around March'ish, my periods started screwing up. Well, actually I didn't have one for over 8 weeks. I thought I was pregnant. Thrilled to the bone, I then learned I wasn't. Gyn did some bloodwork and learned my body was producing prolactin - a hormone created in lactating mothers. He ordered an MRI to see if I had a brain tumor. I'm tumor free. So he chalks it up to the Risperdal I've been taking for so long. My psychiatrist and endocrinologist said there's nothing that can be done, as all types of medication in the anti-psychotic class have potential to cause prolactin creation. Pulling me off the med wouldn't work, as these doctors feel I need an anti-psychotic to function. So this is the medical background of my story.
As time has gone on, I have completely lost interest in sex. This is not good. At all. It's truly taking it's toll on my relationship. Folks, I don't want it one bit. I never get horny anymore. I'd rather cuddle up in bed then spread my legs for some wiener. It means nothing to me anymore. My boyfriend has been as understanding as he can possibly be. But I used to be a very sexual woman. He'd wake me up 4 times in the middle of the night for a little action and I'd be all over it. Now, I actually fake stomach aches to avoid hurting his feelings.
Last week, I saw a new psychiatrist who isn't happy with my med regimen. Not only does he feel the Risperdal is killing my sexual appetite, but a couple others are too. He's weening me off the above listed meds, one at a time, while putting me on something called Lamictal. He informed me that this is going to be a long and tedious process since I'm so drugged up. But I can't wait like this - not with the way things are.
What I'm asking from you folks, is for suggestions, feedback - anything - that might spark my interest again. I recently dropped $100 on toys. It took me 45 minutes to get off with one of them alone. I really didn't enjoy myself. We've tried the KY Yours & Mine. I'm not sure I like it. It's nice, but not earth shattering or anything. Worst part of it all is I do indeed get horny...... when I take Percosets that I get once a month for a pain issue. And imo, that's bullshit. That's abusing them. And I can't live my life abusing pain killers just to have sex with my boyfriend.
I guess this is the gist of it all. I'm really looking forward to any replies anyone has. I need help. k bye