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Man, I feel your pain. I'm 33 and have recently been having what seems like a mid-life crisis to me. I have two boys, 15 and 4, that are basically the reason I live and breathe every day. After my divorce from TotalMILF, I was still doing pretty well. We found mutual ground for ending our marriage and it all seemed okay (and still does between her and I). I got involved with another girl and was with her a bit over a year, by far my shortest adult relationship. I fell head over heels, but things didn't work out and now I basically feel broken. There are job, money, education, and general life issues at hand as well, but the relationship front is really keeping me down.
I have an ex... the girl I was with before TM. In a lot of ways, despite the time we've been apart, I wish we could find our way back to each other. Unfortunately that's extremely unlikely to happen. I kind of don't really want to put myself out there again. I feel like I'm damaged goods.
I'm back in school, this is my 3rd year back. I'm happy that I'm putting forth the effort, but I don't know what end it's a means to. I've been running a lot - 5 miles a day, 3 days a week - to get back in shape, but I'm not sure if I'm doing it for myself or just to fill a void. I have a job that I enjoy, despite the pay being medicore, but I'm not sure if I still want to be in this industry (IT). I'm deeply questioning every aspect of my life, and I keep coming out of those introspectives with nothing - like I don't really know who I am anymore, or what I want out of life.
It's been a few months like this now, basically it started in April and has become worse rather than better...
So, yeah, not helpful except to point out that you aren't alone.
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