Anonymous Member

I need to know if anyone has ever been in a situation where an opportunity presented itself to meet someone very special, but you screwed it up? Over three years ago, I was at a sports clinic, for some physio I needed. A couple of visits in, I saw this beautiful therapist I hadn't seen before. Very early on, it became very apparent that she was interested in meeting me. Lucky me, right! Well, unfortunately, all this attention tapped into some self confidence issues I thought had long since been resolved. I'm a lot older than she is, and should have had it together a lot better than I did, but it seemed that the closer she got, the thicker the walls around me became. Pretty pathetic, I know! The worst of this whole episode was one night, when I was speaking to the receptionist, and she came around to see me, and I simply froze. The last time I saw her, during that time, she was again at the front desk, and I blew past her, as if she was invisible. The sad thing is that I had no idea I was being such a jackass. I always considered myself a nice person, but since that time, I'm no longer sure. She's moved on, but I seem to be weighed down with all this shame and regret. An easy out would be to tell myself "I didn't know what I was doing", but that only seems to make it worse, since I never got the opportunity to show her my true self.
I want to be clear that this isn't about the regret over not 'hooking up' with a gorgeous girl, but more about not being able to respond positively to someone reaching out to me.
I am, therefore, asking if anyone is able to admit to a similar situation, and, tell me how they were able to move on. I would greatly appreciate any and all advice.
Thank you.