Wow but not that surprising that a lot of you felt jealousy as well towards siblings especially. I like the fact that I'm not alone in how I feel about my older sister, so thanks for that and that's awesome all of you were able to overcome it, and/or they were.
I actually did talk to her over the weekend and she was very supportive. And I am feeling so much better just because of that. Great advice Cimarron.
And thanks Plan9, lol that definitely helps!
All you guys rock! Thanks for the comments and advice.