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We've spoken at length about my living situation at her place and she even invited me to live with her. She cleared out closet space, etc. I believe that issue has been thoroughly taken care of. I didn't want to originally, but she assured me that she wanted me around and liked having me around for when she gets home from work as a shoulder to lean on, etc. That was all going well. I'm still looking for work and I still do things here and there when I can. I tutor part-time in the evening which always gives her at least a couple hours of complete freedom - no work, no worries, no me, no nothing but her and whatever she feels like doing.
She just seems to feel like we don't have a connection or that she's completely isolated. She says she has felt this before and doesn't want to feel it anymore. I always make sure to clean up a bit before she gets home - do the dishes, make the bed, have some candles lit, have the Phils game on for her to watch when she gets in (she loves the Phils), vacuum once a week, straighten up the couches so it doesn't look like a mess, etc etc. Yet she feels like I'm not there for her. I get mixed signals. She tells me all these things (to which I have no good response) and then holds my hand and tells me everything will be fine once we get to California. I think she hates the area and needs a vacation.
I don't know. I'm so incredibly confused and hurt by all of this.
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