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Falling Again
It's been a while since I've posted. I'm sorry, this is a fabolous internet corner, but many things happened: I've started practicing parkour and builded my own blog (and later a little forum).
When things goes hard this is a good place to post.
If you remember some of my posts or chats, I'm a PhD nuclear physics student, and since almost a year ago I planned to trip to Vancouver/Seattle where a big joint venture of theoretical and experimental nuclear physics do THE stuff that I want to do.
Few days ago I've not been admitted to the Nuclear Physics Summer School that is the main door to enter in that world.
For this reason I think that I'm again falling into depression. During these days I don't want to go to work, to wake up, even to going out when it's sunny and train or run a little. I'm in an apathic, nervous and sad state, simple watching TV series or playing videogames all day, with no-will of doing anything creative.
Now I've too many doubt on my work: Does someone care about my work? does these ideas worth the effort? does I really fitted for this work?
I think I cannot work without having answers to these (and others) questions, but I think I cannot have the answer, surely not unless I finish the job...
I'm only feeling I'm failing everything I do, and the PhD is mine worst idea...
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