queer

hello

i was wondering if anyone here could provide some insight to my situation...

so, i have this friend who is a girl, (i am a straight guy despite my username), we used to be quite close but nothing major ever happened. so to get to the point, we aren't close anymore, but i want us to be. i am really afraid of loosing friends and as a result i can appear quite clingy. she hates that. recently we are becoming closer again tho.

but i care quite a lot about her, and worry about her because she seems to get in bad situations more often than not. all this worrying really gets me down and has a very negative affect on my life (ie: her wellbeing becomes my no1 priority, leaving me doing nothing for myself). i fear for her safety sometimes, mostly fear self inflicted injurys (not that this has happened before, i just worry that it may).

so i guess my problem is that having her in my life is a bad thing but i like her too much to block her out, plus this my fault, not hers, i can't take it out on her.

so anyway, thanks for readin if you did... any help would be great.